ok..long post...sorry guys

[down_w_diseese]

ok so i had a meeting with one of my dads friends/former bosses at the bank...evidently my dad has been pulling strings without me knowing it with the whole uva situation...let me break it down to anyone who cares to pay attention/read out there...i have good grades..not brook miller grades, but damn good grades and its so fucking hard to hear mrs. gill sit right next to me and break it down about how many ways im not going to get into the school i want to...any underclassmen reading this..seriously have fun with that...our school tells us of the beauties of college and the land of milk and honey..but the reality is that according to mrs. gill i have maybe a 50/50 chance of getting into uva...with all of my connections..i mean my grandpa was the athletic director there for 20 years for fucks sake..he hired the dean of admissions...but gill has to take all of your positivity and turn it into what-ifs..everythings a situation or a dilemma with the college guidance counsellers at our school so my advice is to not listen to them...so what if i dont have 4.5 and a 2200 on my sat...im going to settle for getting into a university that supposedly i dont deserve for a lack of a half of a point on my gpa and my mid-level 1880 on the sat doesnt really live up to..i really wish that this wasnt on my mind right now..but were robots at our school..college machines..thats all weve been doing..ever since we got into high school weve been going to college and we just didnt know it..i mean if i pass all my ap tests this year ill graduate from college in 3 1/2 years, maybe 3...idk..anything i would normally say about me not caring about school anymore would be a lie..ive cared too long and worked wayyy too hard for that to be even close to true...im going to avoid the live journal cliches of change and redirection from writing...this thing will be a tool for my frustrations the rest of this year..hopefully theyll end december 1st..but fuck..ive gotta get in somewhere right? the problem with our school is that were not used to settling for anything but perfection or what we really want..all i really want to do is to go to virginia..and have a kickass time with my friends this year...ive already got the latter part covered..im having a great time this year..whether it is the body paint..or the pointless banter and conversations that take place in the glory of the senior lounge..or maybe its the fact that im taking only 4 classes..one thing that did brighten my day today..got an email back from mrs steimer and one of my essays is almost done...quoth mrs steimer, "college essays are a drag" i fully agree..fully man fully...
im done
andrew morrison sebo

ps..up to uva tomorrow...in case i do not return from what will be a wild adventure..i left my will in my ap bio notebook...mainly it consists of a knife fight to the death as to who gets my car...later kids