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Right so, Camp Lohikan. I really don't know where to start off or what to say.
This month I've met some great people and others not so great. I've met people with amazing personalities and others with ones I couldn't stand. Some people had accents, others moles, some oddly shaped heads, then there was those with beautiful eyes/hair (hmm who could this be referring to?). I am walking away from this experiance with knowing who I am and what I want to do. I want to start working out, so that I can be completely secure with my physic. I understand that I may have an under-active thyroid and in this case I will understand it's not my fault. If it's not this scenerio then I have to believe I've been blessed (ugh.) with a slooooow metabolism...(thanks.) For I do not over eat, I'm not a lazy kid, I don't eat crap-food and no one I'm related to is large. I'm not a large person, I'm just cubby...or so I think. Well let's put it this way, I could be more fit. And from walking probably 2 or 3 miles a day, I've decided I want to be who I'd wanted to be since 5th grade...(heh. way to act on it 2 years later dipshit.). So, I'm going to work out with Madre 3 times a week...let's see where that gets me. =/. Camp has also made me..Emo, if you will. At random times I'd get teary-eyed, or real pissed for no reason at all, and the rest of the time I'd be regular old me...quick-witted/random/happy 'n' smiling and when this happens I have to ask myself, "What's wrong...seriously?" and though it may be a little off and not related to anything I sort of was lead to believe it was this. Me, personally and confident with who I am..on the inside and have been, I'm pretty much a stable person with whom enjoys helping others but as of lately I've felt as if I've been taken advantage of, or lied to..alot, and once again I may be completely off track but I seem to believe that the fact that I am not completely and totally secure with myself makes it easy for others to pour their hearts out to me, but me not to them. None of this makes much sense to me as I type it out, but the more I think, the more I am unhappy about things...and I am and will going to act upon this goal of mine.
On a completely different note, would anyone like to redo my layout? 'Cause this pre-made one...sucks. I went to Barns and Noble yesterday and bought The Flaming Lips (2 Disc DVD & CD set), and The Weakerthans (Left and Leaving)...I had a hard time deciding upon with Weakerthans album to by because I feel that "Aside" is my own personal anthem but, thanks to Dave I do now enjoy "This Great City!" hmm, I like my purchases very much so. I downloaded AOL 8.0 Plus, can you say delayed much?
Thursday night (night I arrived home), I just chilled with Mom, and watched I Love the 90's. Friday got a pedicure..and two finger nails painted...for I passed out before the nice Korean woman could finish. =/. This time when I was unconcious I could hear people talking in fast forward. Friday night I went out to O'Bennigans (ha! Irish) with Sal, Gab, JoANNA, Erica, Cavataio and ...sandra. Saturday, caught up on sleep then went swimming in Cavataio's pool with Gab, JoANNA, and Erica and then they all came back here and slept over (plus Mallory). We, actually I, made some prank calls, which were out of this world hilarious. =). Today, Sunday everyone went home around 1...then Mom went up to go out with dinner with doofus and his parents, while everyone here went to The Mannings Sweet 16 and I stayed home and unpacked and read and made a stupid shirt and felt bad for myself. I was possibly going to go do something with Mallory and Angela but they are hanging out at Angela's and that's too far. Eri just called and maybe we'll see a Movie, but I don't feel like doing that, I want to do something out of the ordinary and fun because it's Summer GODDAMNIT! I better stop writing, because well, it's not like anyway reads these LARGE posts anyway, well atleast I don't. =/. hmph. If you have any suggestions or sympathy for pathetic ol' Suzie...comment. =).
Right so, Camp Lohikan. I really don't know where to start off or what to say.
This month I've met some great people and others not so great. I've met people with amazing personalities and others with ones I couldn't stand. Some people had accents, others moles, some oddly shaped heads, then there was those with beautiful eyes/hair (hmm who could this be referring to?). I am walking away from this experiance with knowing who I am and what I want to do. I want to start working out, so that I can be completely secure with my physic. I understand that I may have an under-active thyroid and in this case I will understand it's not my fault. If it's not this scenerio then I have to believe I've been blessed (ugh.) with a slooooow metabolism...(thanks.) For I do not over eat, I'm not a lazy kid, I don't eat crap-food and no one I'm related to is large. I'm not a large person, I'm just cubby...or so I think. Well let's put it this way, I could be more fit. And from walking probably 2 or 3 miles a day, I've decided I want to be who I'd wanted to be since 5th grade...(heh. way to act on it 2 years later dipshit.). So, I'm going to work out with Madre 3 times a week...let's see where that gets me. =/. Camp has also made me..Emo, if you will. At random times I'd get teary-eyed, or real pissed for no reason at all, and the rest of the time I'd be regular old me...quick-witted/random/happy 'n' smiling and when this happens I have to ask myself, "What's wrong...seriously?" and though it may be a little off and not related to anything I sort of was lead to believe it was this. Me, personally and confident with who I am..on the inside and have been, I'm pretty much a stable person with whom enjoys helping others but as of lately I've felt as if I've been taken advantage of, or lied to..alot, and once again I may be completely off track but I seem to believe that the fact that I am not completely and totally secure with myself makes it easy for others to pour their hearts out to me, but me not to them. None of this makes much sense to me as I type it out, but the more I think, the more I am unhappy about things...and I am and will going to act upon this goal of mine.
On a completely different note, would anyone like to redo my layout? 'Cause this pre-made one...sucks. I went to Barns and Noble yesterday and bought The Flaming Lips (2 Disc DVD & CD set), and The Weakerthans (Left and Leaving)...I had a hard time deciding upon with Weakerthans album to by because I feel that "Aside" is my own personal anthem but, thanks to Dave I do now enjoy "This Great City!" hmm, I like my purchases very much so. I downloaded AOL 8.0 Plus, can you say delayed much?
Thursday night (night I arrived home), I just chilled with Mom, and watched I Love the 90's. Friday got a pedicure..and two finger nails painted...for I passed out before the nice Korean woman could finish. =/. This time when I was unconcious I could hear people talking in fast forward. Friday night I went out to O'Bennigans (ha! Irish) with Sal, Gab, JoANNA, Erica, Cavataio and ...sandra. Saturday, caught up on sleep then went swimming in Cavataio's pool with Gab, JoANNA, and Erica and then they all came back here and slept over (plus Mallory). We, actually I, made some prank calls, which were out of this world hilarious. =). Today, Sunday everyone went home around 1...then Mom went up to go out with dinner with doofus and his parents, while everyone here went to The Mannings Sweet 16 and I stayed home and unpacked and read and made a stupid shirt and felt bad for myself. I was possibly going to go do something with Mallory and Angela but they are hanging out at Angela's and that's too far. Eri just called and maybe we'll see a Movie, but I don't feel like doing that, I want to do something out of the ordinary and fun because it's Summer GODDAMNIT! I better stop writing, because well, it's not like anyway reads these LARGE posts anyway, well atleast I don't. =/. hmph. If you have any suggestions or sympathy for pathetic ol' Suzie...comment. =).