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[down_butnot_out]

my grandpa had to have his leg amputated.
it makes me sad, to know that next time i see him, if i even get to see him again he won't be "whole" or as i remember him being when i was a kid.
it makes his passing seem even more imminent, and i am pretty sure i am not ready to lose him.
this year is just such a fucking trip :(
i just really want to go see my grandpa.