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i dont want to wake up at 6:15 on monday. i dont want to deal with teachers and schoolwork. i dont want to go to my piano lesson on monday.i dont want to not get enough sleep.
i would love to go to bed at 8:00 everynight if i was tired. but i cant. cause my stupid body wont. cause no matter what, i just always end up going to sleep at 11:30 and im sick of it. im taking a really long shower and going to bed hungry cause oops im too freaking lazy to make my own snack. im lazy and im tired. im going to sleep and waking up at 9 just so i can torture myself into going back to sleep cause im lazy and i stay up to late and i just want to rip my own head off for being such an idiot for just typing this right now, wasting time of sleep. im tired, but i can never go to sleep. but i am tonight. right when i want to. now. UGH!
i would love to go to bed at 8:00 everynight if i was tired. but i cant. cause my stupid body wont. cause no matter what, i just always end up going to sleep at 11:30 and im sick of it. im taking a really long shower and going to bed hungry cause oops im too freaking lazy to make my own snack. im lazy and im tired. im going to sleep and waking up at 9 just so i can torture myself into going back to sleep cause im lazy and i stay up to late and i just want to rip my own head off for being such an idiot for just typing this right now, wasting time of sleep. im tired, but i can never go to sleep. but i am tonight. right when i want to. now. UGH!