PPD, or is it just regular depression?
I sometimes wonder if I just disappeared would everyone go on they way they are, or would they even notice? I think Derrick would notice but quickly forget since he is only eleven months old. and my husband might miss me, but he would move back to brasil most likely so someone can take care of the baby that he trusts.. but other than that no one else would really notice I think. I mean, my mom would eventually notice I haven't called her for awhile and family at thanksgiving would maybe notice but just shrug it off to me being me or busy or something.....I don't know. I know it's just some form of depression talking really, on one hand. On the other, though, logically in the back of my mind I realize that I have become such a recluse and not even a productive one. That bothers me. A lot. I don't need a shrink to tell me that. I feel like i have gone back fifteen years and am a angsty teen again who gets upset over the littlest things. Hell, I am sitting in the dark typing this while my husband visits with his brother and his brother's girl friend down from Boston.