Nov 24, 2006 09:45
I don't know how to really start this entry. It just seemed sort of like a good idea.
I was sitting in the dorm alone. Katia's gone to California and all. I needed something to do. So I cleaned up the dorm a little.
I made my bed and then I re-made Katia's and put some new sheets and things on it. I sorted out the cupboards and got rid of all the junk on the floor as well.
I felt really sick. Like, nauseous. I went outside for a bit, but I couldn't keep - I just kept on thinking about it by myself. Freida was there.
I think I spaced out a little today. I wasn't sure what I was doing, but I went to see Dai. I guess I just wanted to talk because we haven't and today was important and --
I really can't believe I'm not over it yet.
I can't believe I put him through all of this. I basically ruined his life - if it weren't for me, he'd just be a normal teenager.
I just couldn't say what I wanted to say. I never can. This feels so stupid.
dai,
donna,
california,
guilt,
katia