so i've decided....
when i just came here, i obviously didn't know anyone. but those few that i met were good to me. weekends would be nothing special, maybe would get invited over to someone's house for a movie night. i only talk to two people out of the ones i met my first year here. two out of like....five or something. whatever its not relevant cause....nevermind. so
i'd enjoy my own company. i'd find things to do. i was alright. but not untill this whole.....thing started. so what i didn't go out every friday or saturday or sunday. i seriously didn't give a shit. i just did whatever i wanted to, and it kept me satisfied. but then after i've tasted what it's like to be around people, and joke, and laugh, and hold hands, i started thinking i would never be able to go back to just staying home and not going out. it's kinda like, i've tried it once - i wanted more. which makes sense. for a while it was even so weird for me to be home alone and not having a person to say a word to. just walking around in silence was so awkward. so
i figured, it's nice to go out, yes, i wished people would invite me to things. but i can feel that today is gonna be a perfect day. bet a hundred bucks noone's gonna call me. not to even say hi. whatever, i don't care. i'm prolly not gonna call anyone, which as i understand from what people tell me, is my problem. today i'm just gonna do whatever the hell i want to. i'm gonna finish my painting hopefully, i alredy finished the wallet for eric(who's gonna be the second person on earth to have a see through duct tape wallet, lets give him a round of applause), i might do some homework if i feel like it, i might set the physics book on fire cause i fucking hate that class wish i've never taken it, i'm gonna play my favorite computer game, i'm gonna finish cleaning and get my money from my parents, i'm gonna clean my hamster's house so that he doesnt die. it's gonna be a perfect day.
btw yesterday was good times....<3
hope mona's gremlin doesn't die. that dog makes me so sad.
gimme more snow. more snow! more snow! i don't want it to be summer again.
its funny how there really are "one week bands". you listen to them for like a week and you stop liking them...i'm not gonna give examples.
oh yea...pick those classes for next year you suckas hahahaha just kidding, i love my junior friends
<3o.
i'd enjoy my own company. i'd find things to do. i was alright. but not untill this whole.....thing started. so what i didn't go out every friday or saturday or sunday. i seriously didn't give a shit. i just did whatever i wanted to, and it kept me satisfied. but then after i've tasted what it's like to be around people, and joke, and laugh, and hold hands, i started thinking i would never be able to go back to just staying home and not going out. it's kinda like, i've tried it once - i wanted more. which makes sense. for a while it was even so weird for me to be home alone and not having a person to say a word to. just walking around in silence was so awkward. so
i figured, it's nice to go out, yes, i wished people would invite me to things. but i can feel that today is gonna be a perfect day. bet a hundred bucks noone's gonna call me. not to even say hi. whatever, i don't care. i'm prolly not gonna call anyone, which as i understand from what people tell me, is my problem. today i'm just gonna do whatever the hell i want to. i'm gonna finish my painting hopefully, i alredy finished the wallet for eric(who's gonna be the second person on earth to have a see through duct tape wallet, lets give him a round of applause), i might do some homework if i feel like it, i might set the physics book on fire cause i fucking hate that class wish i've never taken it, i'm gonna play my favorite computer game, i'm gonna finish cleaning and get my money from my parents, i'm gonna clean my hamster's house so that he doesnt die. it's gonna be a perfect day.
btw yesterday was good times....<3
hope mona's gremlin doesn't die. that dog makes me so sad.
gimme more snow. more snow! more snow! i don't want it to be summer again.
its funny how there really are "one week bands". you listen to them for like a week and you stop liking them...i'm not gonna give examples.
oh yea...pick those classes for next year you suckas hahahaha just kidding, i love my junior friends
<3o.