Not ganked from anyone or anywhere.
[mood| 
...deep shit...?]
[music| Luna Park - Origa]
"Beastiality doesn't bother me, but chest hair and brain-spooning sure do."
Well, here's a little thing I made. It's inspired by penbeetreewood's and my convo a few days ago.
My Morality. My Being. My Self.
A person's morals, scruples, and faults; their personality. These are all a part of what makes you who you are. This is not a survey for the faint of heart - it requires much introspection, and a solid grasp of your innermost thoughts, feelings, and beliefs. Do NOT give a short, succinct answer; that is not what this survey is for. This is a survey to show others just what makes you you, yes, but it's also more than that; it's a way to discover, and put into concrete form, your true sense of self.
Part One:Write about your take on friendship, including what you look for in a friend, how you want friends to treat you, and your morality/scruples involved in such a relationship.
I tend to make friends slowly; getting to know a person well enough to call them a friend implies more than one conversation, and not a five minute one, either. I've got to have a link or bond in some way with that friend, too; not like a bond of love or anything like that (that's too corny, even for me). I mean something in common, where we share views. I NEED to know that a friend shares my opinion on at least one not-shallow topic, or I don't feel like I can depend on them. I'm not sure why this is, but I still manage to have a fair amount of good friends. The main thing I want in a friend is loyalty; I want to know that they will be there, to support me, if need be. I want them to be able to believe in me, to trust me, and to be quick to back me in a confrontation. I want to know that they'll take me down a notch if I get too annoying; I want them to be able to be blunt with me. I want a friend who understands that I'm there for them, and that I'd do most anything for them; and for my best friend, anything. I want them to understand my faults, to not take offense at what I say when I don't intend to hurt, and to always know that as long as they're there for me, I'll be there for them; I want them to know that even if they feel the relationship has stagnated, it might not feel like that to me, and I'll still be around for emotional, mental, and physical support.
I group friends into three categories (I generally overanalyze things because I enjoy doing so): aquaintances, good friends, and best friend. I only have one best friend, since for me, splitting attention between favorites would be damned hard and feel unfair to me, and quite possibly the other best bud. All the other friends that I have a rapport with are good friends; they know me almost as well as my best friend, but I don't feel as close to them as to the best, and chances are they feel they same. Aquaintances are just those people I can have a pleasant conversation in passing with; they are people I recognize on sight, and feel comfortable talking to, but not someone I would divulge personal feelings with (I often have a harder time remembering these people's names, as well). All in all, I have one best friend, 10-20 good friends, and under 10 aquaintances.
I've lately found, however, that my best friend since fourth grade doesn't quite feel like I'm her best friend. She considered me as second-best, and the one she thought of best didn't think of her as a best friend. This was a turning point for me, a point in my life where I realized that those I care about most may not feel as attached to me as I am to them, and that I had to learn to let them go their own way. Even if I feel bitter, I have to back off, and wish her well, because she my friend, and as such, I will support her in anything, even if it goes against my scruples completely.
I do not EVER betray my friends on purpose. If they feel like I have, then I want them to tell me. I am NOT a backstabber; I'm NOT a fair-weather friend. When you've become a friend, you're a friend for life, unless you've done something that offends my very sense of self, my innermost morals, that I hold to beyond all else.
I am probably the most loyal friend in my circle, and I have the feeling that if they knew how deep my feelings on the subject were, they'd be both flattered and frightened.
Part Two: Explain your religious beliefs, how they affect your way of thinking, and, most importantly, how these opinions reflect your views on life and death.
I was born into a Methodist Christian family, and for the first ten years or so of my life, I adhered to that faith. After a while, I began questioning the faith; I asked questions that had no definite answers, despite the "explanations" of those with religious fervor. I eventually proclaimed myself atheistic, and no longer followed the practice of worship. These last few years, I've been realizing that something HAD to have created the universe, but I didn't believe that any religion ever in existence reflected my thoughts. I believe that something caused the Big Bang, or an event that started everything, and then let go of the reins, letting things proceed as they would. I believe that this power does not require worship; I believe it just watches and observes everything for an unimaginable purpose of its own. That is my main beef with religous fanatics: if your God is so loving, forgiving, and unconceited, aka PERFECT, why does he demand worship? Why does he refuse to prove his existence? If he is real, then why have all these beliefs been created by humans? It is the Creator, sure, but I cannot unconditionally love something that has no effect or meaning in my life that I have not decided for myself. I am not refusing to believe in a god; I am refusing to believe in man-made stories created to explain why we exist. At one point in time, the Greek/Roman faith, with it's pantheon of human-like gods, was the most well-known and most-followed religion; there are very few alive that still follow it. In the centuries to come, I think that Christianity will meet the same fate, along with the Buddhism, Hindu, and Muslim faiths. We'll have new religions, ones that will explain things that are mysteries to us in this day and age. All in all, I can summarize these beliefs in one short sentence.
Religion is based on myth and is an explanation for the unknown.
And as for my thoughts on death, well, it's not nearly as deep. I would like to think that I'll get another chance at life, but at the same time, I would like rest from the endless path of the living. I like to think that when I die, I will sleep contentedly for as long as it takes for me to want to wake once more; I would wish that I could choose when and where I'll be reborn. I don't believe in heaven and angels in white robes with wings; I think that's just a fairy tale, and one so corny it's hard for me to understand how millions could believe in such a place. The same goes for the concept of hell; I think someone just wished revenge on person who hurt them in some way, and thought up the idea of punishment for the wicked (or basically those we hate).
However, if I'm wrong, and there IS a God that wants us to act according to his wishes, well....
My morals, my understanding of right and wrong, actually follow the Ten Commandments.
(It's always good to have a backup plan.)
Part Three:What are your fears, your hopes, and your dreams? What is your core reason for living, your purpose in life?
My fears, in terms of phobias, would be deep, natural bodies of water; however, in terms of my self, my emotions, I would have to say being forgotten, left behind, unacknowledged. I want someone to remember me, to feel I'm at least worthy of a thought now and then. If I'm alive only to be forgotten, why am I here? Why do I continue on? I've found that I subconsciously feel like I must be odd, must draw attention, and must be loud and humorous, since in my heart I know that I will not effect the world greatly, and leave a name all remember. So saying, I have a deep-seated need to make a profound impression on someone, somewhere, in an effort for my memory to live on, if only for a few generations.
I've found that I don't give much meaning to life, and that I, like most of the people in this world, don't know the purpose of life, regardless of my own personal reasons for going on. When I think about it, I feel like I'm contemplating infinity; I feel small, unoticed, alone, and abandoned. So, because even though I strive to make people remember me when I'm gone, my true purpose for existing is unknown to me. Since it's easy to get depressed when you consider that sort of thing, you've got to make a long-term goal, one that will take all-your life to fulfill, but not one that's as deep as your reason for living. Some people give to others, and try to gain satisfaction from that; others prefer to give to humanity as a whole, whether through cures or money, food or knowledge. I personally have a very shallow and materialistic goal, but one that I can keep myself focused on, since it's easy to do, and will never feel like it'll be finished, leaving me without a goal in life. To this end, I have decided that I need to collect as much anime as possible within the span of my life. While this may seem odd, slightly humorous, and out-of-place with this question, to me, it symbolizes a dream that will never leave me behind, that, despite(or maybe because) it never being finished, will give me satisfaction, content, and peace throughout my life. It also lets me give something to the generations to come in my family; again, back to my fear of being forgotten. I can't create world peace, can't find a cure for every disease. But I can, in the future, somewhere, sometime, give a gift worth remembering to a child in my family.
And randomly from celinafairy....
Shelby
The ledge estate: English
You are a visionary with courage and enthusiasm if a little hasty at times. Your ambitious nature can be satisfied when you apply wisdom, patience and self-discipline to your vitality and zest. You have wonderful way with words and may be drawn to the communications arena where there is the potential for great success. Your generous and warm nature attracts many friends and loved ones.
Meredith
Protector from the sea : Welsh
Your charming, witty and vibrant personality ensures your popularity and usually places you at the centre of activities. You also have a determined will and capacity for leadership which often places you in positions of authority. Your generous, humanitarian and idealistic nature gives you a desire to work towards goals which will be of benefit to everyone. Material and emotional success are a natural result of your endeavours.
Leach
Balanced and fairminded you possess the ability to use sound reason and judgement when determined and decisive action is required. Persuasive and logical you tend to be an influential figure in your circle of friends and associates. You are extremely adaptable and this is necessary as you seem to be continually being presented with decisions of a life altering nature.
Feeling deep enough to make a meme,
DM
...deep shit...?]
[music| Luna Park - Origa]
"Beastiality doesn't bother me, but chest hair and brain-spooning sure do."
Well, here's a little thing I made. It's inspired by penbeetreewood's and my convo a few days ago.
My Morality. My Being. My Self.
A person's morals, scruples, and faults; their personality. These are all a part of what makes you who you are. This is not a survey for the faint of heart - it requires much introspection, and a solid grasp of your innermost thoughts, feelings, and beliefs. Do NOT give a short, succinct answer; that is not what this survey is for. This is a survey to show others just what makes you you, yes, but it's also more than that; it's a way to discover, and put into concrete form, your true sense of self.
Part One:Write about your take on friendship, including what you look for in a friend, how you want friends to treat you, and your morality/scruples involved in such a relationship.
I tend to make friends slowly; getting to know a person well enough to call them a friend implies more than one conversation, and not a five minute one, either. I've got to have a link or bond in some way with that friend, too; not like a bond of love or anything like that (that's too corny, even for me). I mean something in common, where we share views. I NEED to know that a friend shares my opinion on at least one not-shallow topic, or I don't feel like I can depend on them. I'm not sure why this is, but I still manage to have a fair amount of good friends. The main thing I want in a friend is loyalty; I want to know that they will be there, to support me, if need be. I want them to be able to believe in me, to trust me, and to be quick to back me in a confrontation. I want to know that they'll take me down a notch if I get too annoying; I want them to be able to be blunt with me. I want a friend who understands that I'm there for them, and that I'd do most anything for them; and for my best friend, anything. I want them to understand my faults, to not take offense at what I say when I don't intend to hurt, and to always know that as long as they're there for me, I'll be there for them; I want them to know that even if they feel the relationship has stagnated, it might not feel like that to me, and I'll still be around for emotional, mental, and physical support.
I group friends into three categories (I generally overanalyze things because I enjoy doing so): aquaintances, good friends, and best friend. I only have one best friend, since for me, splitting attention between favorites would be damned hard and feel unfair to me, and quite possibly the other best bud. All the other friends that I have a rapport with are good friends; they know me almost as well as my best friend, but I don't feel as close to them as to the best, and chances are they feel they same. Aquaintances are just those people I can have a pleasant conversation in passing with; they are people I recognize on sight, and feel comfortable talking to, but not someone I would divulge personal feelings with (I often have a harder time remembering these people's names, as well). All in all, I have one best friend, 10-20 good friends, and under 10 aquaintances.
I've lately found, however, that my best friend since fourth grade doesn't quite feel like I'm her best friend. She considered me as second-best, and the one she thought of best didn't think of her as a best friend. This was a turning point for me, a point in my life where I realized that those I care about most may not feel as attached to me as I am to them, and that I had to learn to let them go their own way. Even if I feel bitter, I have to back off, and wish her well, because she my friend, and as such, I will support her in anything, even if it goes against my scruples completely.
I do not EVER betray my friends on purpose. If they feel like I have, then I want them to tell me. I am NOT a backstabber; I'm NOT a fair-weather friend. When you've become a friend, you're a friend for life, unless you've done something that offends my very sense of self, my innermost morals, that I hold to beyond all else.
I am probably the most loyal friend in my circle, and I have the feeling that if they knew how deep my feelings on the subject were, they'd be both flattered and frightened.
Part Two: Explain your religious beliefs, how they affect your way of thinking, and, most importantly, how these opinions reflect your views on life and death.
I was born into a Methodist Christian family, and for the first ten years or so of my life, I adhered to that faith. After a while, I began questioning the faith; I asked questions that had no definite answers, despite the "explanations" of those with religious fervor. I eventually proclaimed myself atheistic, and no longer followed the practice of worship. These last few years, I've been realizing that something HAD to have created the universe, but I didn't believe that any religion ever in existence reflected my thoughts. I believe that something caused the Big Bang, or an event that started everything, and then let go of the reins, letting things proceed as they would. I believe that this power does not require worship; I believe it just watches and observes everything for an unimaginable purpose of its own. That is my main beef with religous fanatics: if your God is so loving, forgiving, and unconceited, aka PERFECT, why does he demand worship? Why does he refuse to prove his existence? If he is real, then why have all these beliefs been created by humans? It is the Creator, sure, but I cannot unconditionally love something that has no effect or meaning in my life that I have not decided for myself. I am not refusing to believe in a god; I am refusing to believe in man-made stories created to explain why we exist. At one point in time, the Greek/Roman faith, with it's pantheon of human-like gods, was the most well-known and most-followed religion; there are very few alive that still follow it. In the centuries to come, I think that Christianity will meet the same fate, along with the Buddhism, Hindu, and Muslim faiths. We'll have new religions, ones that will explain things that are mysteries to us in this day and age. All in all, I can summarize these beliefs in one short sentence.
Religion is based on myth and is an explanation for the unknown.
And as for my thoughts on death, well, it's not nearly as deep. I would like to think that I'll get another chance at life, but at the same time, I would like rest from the endless path of the living. I like to think that when I die, I will sleep contentedly for as long as it takes for me to want to wake once more; I would wish that I could choose when and where I'll be reborn. I don't believe in heaven and angels in white robes with wings; I think that's just a fairy tale, and one so corny it's hard for me to understand how millions could believe in such a place. The same goes for the concept of hell; I think someone just wished revenge on person who hurt them in some way, and thought up the idea of punishment for the wicked (or basically those we hate).
However, if I'm wrong, and there IS a God that wants us to act according to his wishes, well....
My morals, my understanding of right and wrong, actually follow the Ten Commandments.
(It's always good to have a backup plan.)
Part Three:What are your fears, your hopes, and your dreams? What is your core reason for living, your purpose in life?
My fears, in terms of phobias, would be deep, natural bodies of water; however, in terms of my self, my emotions, I would have to say being forgotten, left behind, unacknowledged. I want someone to remember me, to feel I'm at least worthy of a thought now and then. If I'm alive only to be forgotten, why am I here? Why do I continue on? I've found that I subconsciously feel like I must be odd, must draw attention, and must be loud and humorous, since in my heart I know that I will not effect the world greatly, and leave a name all remember. So saying, I have a deep-seated need to make a profound impression on someone, somewhere, in an effort for my memory to live on, if only for a few generations.
I've found that I don't give much meaning to life, and that I, like most of the people in this world, don't know the purpose of life, regardless of my own personal reasons for going on. When I think about it, I feel like I'm contemplating infinity; I feel small, unoticed, alone, and abandoned. So, because even though I strive to make people remember me when I'm gone, my true purpose for existing is unknown to me. Since it's easy to get depressed when you consider that sort of thing, you've got to make a long-term goal, one that will take all-your life to fulfill, but not one that's as deep as your reason for living. Some people give to others, and try to gain satisfaction from that; others prefer to give to humanity as a whole, whether through cures or money, food or knowledge. I personally have a very shallow and materialistic goal, but one that I can keep myself focused on, since it's easy to do, and will never feel like it'll be finished, leaving me without a goal in life. To this end, I have decided that I need to collect as much anime as possible within the span of my life. While this may seem odd, slightly humorous, and out-of-place with this question, to me, it symbolizes a dream that will never leave me behind, that, despite(or maybe because) it never being finished, will give me satisfaction, content, and peace throughout my life. It also lets me give something to the generations to come in my family; again, back to my fear of being forgotten. I can't create world peace, can't find a cure for every disease. But I can, in the future, somewhere, sometime, give a gift worth remembering to a child in my family.
And randomly from celinafairy....
Shelby
The ledge estate: English
You are a visionary with courage and enthusiasm if a little hasty at times. Your ambitious nature can be satisfied when you apply wisdom, patience and self-discipline to your vitality and zest. You have wonderful way with words and may be drawn to the communications arena where there is the potential for great success. Your generous and warm nature attracts many friends and loved ones.
Meredith
Protector from the sea : Welsh
Your charming, witty and vibrant personality ensures your popularity and usually places you at the centre of activities. You also have a determined will and capacity for leadership which often places you in positions of authority. Your generous, humanitarian and idealistic nature gives you a desire to work towards goals which will be of benefit to everyone. Material and emotional success are a natural result of your endeavours.
Leach
Balanced and fairminded you possess the ability to use sound reason and judgement when determined and decisive action is required. Persuasive and logical you tend to be an influential figure in your circle of friends and associates. You are extremely adaptable and this is necessary as you seem to be continually being presented with decisions of a life altering nature.
Feeling deep enough to make a meme,
DM