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well hello livejournal, been a long fuckin time huh?
i've been great, i've been having the best time i remember. and nothings even really that different. not much even stands out during the days of the week. its all the same, except i go to school now, which by the way thanks to our lovely school system forgot to mention that the aforementioned 4 credits necessary to graduated were a mistake on the school systems part and now magically require 6 to graduate. Thankfully being only notified of this cause i decided co-op would only lower my gpa, and come to find out i'll fail if i dont pass that class and another one by one semester. so i dropped it cause i'd fail it anyawy and opted for two classes at vg. and it doesn't even bother me. heck if soemthign goes wrong i'll atleast be able to stay for summer before i leave for basic. which all kinds of bad things would happen. i'd lose my tank job most likely, and i'd have to get a job, not that i have to, i'm just tired of feeling like a drain at times, then at other times, i dont need anything from them except a bed and some food. i work hard for the money i get from my parents, but something about the fact that its from my parents is still degrading.
i've been listening to the same song for the past two hours, my car has had zero amount of gas in it since thursday, i need to work for about 50 dollars for my back right brake which had a rock caught in it. and all i want to do is be out of here. I want to go through a deep forest with clear rivers running through it, calm rivers, and rapids too, i want to go back to virginia where i found a place like that, where you coudl hear the wind run through the leaves, and the river rushing over rocks, and everythign was covered with green, to where it seems even the tree trunks grew leaves, and the groudn was matted vines and the path was beaten even though you people hadn't gone through it in years it seemed. there wasn't any asphalt, no tire tracks or any exhaust smell, no schoolbells, or people talking shit about you. where the only voice behind your back is leaves rustled by the wind. Where you can beraly see the blue sky through the tree tops, and the suns light shines through in rays that stand out against all the green. However hard the wind blows its still a warm place. Thats beauty to me. I've only been there three times, and it took the last time for me to realize and appreciate all of that as i do now. thats a true treasure.
dont get me wrong i like civilization, or as close as i am to it being in butner. but somethings i appreciate more than whats man made. it has a deeper appeal than bricks, metal, and concrete.
i've been great, i've been having the best time i remember. and nothings even really that different. not much even stands out during the days of the week. its all the same, except i go to school now, which by the way thanks to our lovely school system forgot to mention that the aforementioned 4 credits necessary to graduated were a mistake on the school systems part and now magically require 6 to graduate. Thankfully being only notified of this cause i decided co-op would only lower my gpa, and come to find out i'll fail if i dont pass that class and another one by one semester. so i dropped it cause i'd fail it anyawy and opted for two classes at vg. and it doesn't even bother me. heck if soemthign goes wrong i'll atleast be able to stay for summer before i leave for basic. which all kinds of bad things would happen. i'd lose my tank job most likely, and i'd have to get a job, not that i have to, i'm just tired of feeling like a drain at times, then at other times, i dont need anything from them except a bed and some food. i work hard for the money i get from my parents, but something about the fact that its from my parents is still degrading.
i've been listening to the same song for the past two hours, my car has had zero amount of gas in it since thursday, i need to work for about 50 dollars for my back right brake which had a rock caught in it. and all i want to do is be out of here. I want to go through a deep forest with clear rivers running through it, calm rivers, and rapids too, i want to go back to virginia where i found a place like that, where you coudl hear the wind run through the leaves, and the river rushing over rocks, and everythign was covered with green, to where it seems even the tree trunks grew leaves, and the groudn was matted vines and the path was beaten even though you people hadn't gone through it in years it seemed. there wasn't any asphalt, no tire tracks or any exhaust smell, no schoolbells, or people talking shit about you. where the only voice behind your back is leaves rustled by the wind. Where you can beraly see the blue sky through the tree tops, and the suns light shines through in rays that stand out against all the green. However hard the wind blows its still a warm place. Thats beauty to me. I've only been there three times, and it took the last time for me to realize and appreciate all of that as i do now. thats a true treasure.
dont get me wrong i like civilization, or as close as i am to it being in butner. but somethings i appreciate more than whats man made. it has a deeper appeal than bricks, metal, and concrete.