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[doulikekorn]

Have you ever wanted to be with someone every minute, every second, and every day of the year. Wishing that you would never have to leave them. Wishing you could wake up beside them every single day. Well.. it sux that you cant right? That's how i feel right now. I wish i could move in with Justin so bad but i know i have to stay with my dad and finish out high school. i dont wanna drop out but i cant stand it when every weekday if i have school the next day that justin has to leave at 9:30. it really sux. and then on weekends he has to leave at 11:00 unless i tell my dad that we're going bowling or to the movies then it's like 12:30 when he has to leave. But i just wish that every day i could wake up beside him. just open my eyes every morning and he'll be the first thing i see. i really cant stand it anymore. he always tells me just wait till i'm 18 and that i only have one more year to go but i dont wanna wait that long. that's WAY too long. and i know that i wont really be able to move in with him once i turn 18 cuz ill still be in school. maybe the summer after but still. that's even longer. i wish he could live with me cuz i know he doesnt like living with his brother but last week saturday my dad let him stay the night cuz he didnt have enough gas to get home but he had to sleep on the couch. when we finally went to sleep i had to come in my room and i hated that feeling. i knew he was in the other room and i wanted to go in there so bad and lay beside him and fall asleep but i knew i couldnt. i dont sleep good when im not with him. but when i am with him and i am able to sneak him into my house or sneak over to his house it's like i've never slept better. i hate being 17. i wish i was 18. i wish i was graduating next year so i would be done with highschool. im getting tired of it. i've missed like 20 days this semester. after this year ill have 1yr and 1/2 left of highschool. i can graduated not next year but the year after that in the first semester cuz i'll only need like 2 or 3 credits and i am not going to go the whole year if i already have enough credits to graduate. i just cant wait til i can move in with justin. i think that would be one of the happiest days of my life. then i cant wait til me and him get married. he wants 2 kids and i always said that i never wanted kids but i do want kids with him. i think he would be a great dad but hopefully that's not til a few years from now. well. i guess im done. i have posted in here for like 13 weeks it said. peace

here's a couple of pics of me and justin