Well today is just another day
So today hasn't been to bad I guess. I talked to CJ very briefly I guess he realized how important he is to me. I don't know. He is in chemo right now and yeah it sucks. I'll probly try to make a brief appearance tomorrow maybe. I don't know if I can handle it. It's just getting old. I am tired of seeing him sick and not doing good. He'll get better he's got his whole life ahead of him. On to something not upseting. Well it seems that mister mitchell is having some issues with his ex. See she just left without saying why then she told him tonight that she didn't have room for him in her life. What the hell. If you love someone don't you try to work something out? I mean really. Love is sacrafice. You take the good with the bad. Not enough time for him but enough time for a new guy which I just seen her with two or three weeks ago? Okay. So if someone just left you and didn't tell you why until two or three months later would you even listen? Why are people so dumb. I can't just sit here and act like it dosen't bother me. It does. Why not try to make other friendships work? Move on. There is more than one person out there for everyone. You're twenty two years old. Don't give up because one person broke your heart. If you do that you are missing out on some many things. I have moved on. I will always love him I will always think about him but it's okay because I know that I am important to him too and by moving on I realize that there is more out there for me and for him. People just need to think about stuff. He kept looking at me tonight as we watched tv and I just acted like it didn't bother me that I just heard the last of his conversation with the ex. It was odd. He just kept looking at me like he was trying to find some emotion he knew I was hiding. Yeah i was. I'm upset and I am confused as to why he dosen't want me or why nobody wants me. I can't seem to figure it out? Can anyone help me? Why dosen't anyone want me? I have been single for awhile now and I can't figure it out? What do I do that pushes people away? I have done everything opposite of what I usually do and here I am stuck in the same damn spot not doing shit. I just can't take it anymore. When will someone want to be with me? Ever or will I always be the single girl who gets setup with random friends buddies that I am going to love and just end up despising? When will someone love me again?