Sucking the poison out of my life
So yeah I realize that sometimes I can be selfcentered and a little to dramatic with shit. But honestly in reality everyone is selfcentered and selfish at one point in their life. I have realized alot recently. That sometimes people will do anything to messup what two people share friendship or a relationship. Why do people do that? Tonight I had some very hateful and upsetting things said to me by people i belived to be my friends. I was told that I think I am prettier than everyone else and that i am stuck up by some one I thought had no right to say it to me. I don't think I am selfish or stuck up I try to balance time with my different groups of friends and some how it ended up interfering. I am not going to repeat names or anything more but I am truly sorry that any of this shit went down. I feel like I am back in highschool with all the people ganging up on one person. It was childish and while it's in the past i can't help wonder what if I packed up my baggage and just said well I am out? Would the wounds heal or would they remain? Would ties be severed or would they remain just as strong? Friendships are important and no matter how bad the situation gets you should never turn your backs on one another. Isn't that how it works? No matter what you are always suppose to be there for one another, right? Tonight I was so upset and confused I didn't know what to do so I called the one person I could talk to, CJ and he called me back and I was so grateful for that. No matter what he is going thru I can always count on him to talk me thru whatever is wrong in my life. Really anything bad I have said about him I take back b/c I know that tommorrow is no guarentee and I know that if I don't say I am sorry and just move on and forget the past that I might never get a chance to say it again. If that makes any sense at all I don't know but it makes sense in this brain of mine. So for anyone and everyone I have ever hurt I am sorry and I hope one day that I will be forgiven. That's all for right now maybe tomorrow will just be a plain boring day.Hopefully.