what's a matter with me
I don't know where i've been emotionally lately. i've been just, very low in self esteem. i feel like i'm not good enough, or something of that sort. i'm just selfish, that's all... i think. i'm sick and tired of hearing people complain. it gets to a point where it start to be a major pain in the ass. i started thinking what if this isn't right. but, deep down, i know it is... it's the only thing i know is right. people have been making fun of me at work for being fat. they obviously don't realize that i get really down on myself when i hear things like that said about me. i'm not sure who would want to be told they have huge boobs anyways. also.. it makes no sense for you to not say it in front of other people... that's stupid.
i'm officially like sarah... no beef or pork. just chicken and fish and everything else that's nice. people need to help me with it too. I realized that i can't stand eating meat anymore because of what some asshole did at my work. he killed a deer and skinned it somewhere, then came to my work and threw it in our dumpster. why the fuck would people be so crule? he just took all the skin off, that's it. left all the meat and tendons on it. disgusting. it made me want to kill that bastard. we have cameras in the back of my work though, so hopefully they caught him.
my car broke down on my way back from sarah's lake house. we made it to some hills in alton, and it stalled. i kept trying to restart it but it wouldn't it. so i popped it into neutral and let it roll down two hills. i hit 55... WICKED fun. no power steering and no power brakes. EEEEK. i was able to slowly roll my car into the alton american legion. MAJOR sketch. the lady in there yelled at me to get out of the bar if i wasn't of age. she was a bitch. then when i politely asked to use the fone, she told me to make it "snappy". yea, my fucking car broke down... wtf do you want from me? seriously.
i got my report card today, along with my schedule. i did pretty well on my report card. i got all a's and b's and a c-. yay for mr. stones class :-x. i don't know what happened there for 4th quarter... i never got back any bad grades on papers? weird. oh well... GPA of 3.3130
I have my next years schedule... semester 1 A: art 1 (took and passed last year... i'm changing it and getting senior priviledge) b: english 4 at w/ TBA. C:Spanish 2 CP w/ lane D: chorus/band
Semester 2 A: Economics CP w/ Mr Clauson. B: Business and Personal Law... WEIRD w/ Crosby... who is that? is she any good? C: International Food w/ davis! :-) D: chorus/band... DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY CLASSES WITH ME!?!? LET ME KNOW!!
love, peace, and chicken grease.
i'm officially like sarah... no beef or pork. just chicken and fish and everything else that's nice. people need to help me with it too. I realized that i can't stand eating meat anymore because of what some asshole did at my work. he killed a deer and skinned it somewhere, then came to my work and threw it in our dumpster. why the fuck would people be so crule? he just took all the skin off, that's it. left all the meat and tendons on it. disgusting. it made me want to kill that bastard. we have cameras in the back of my work though, so hopefully they caught him.
my car broke down on my way back from sarah's lake house. we made it to some hills in alton, and it stalled. i kept trying to restart it but it wouldn't it. so i popped it into neutral and let it roll down two hills. i hit 55... WICKED fun. no power steering and no power brakes. EEEEK. i was able to slowly roll my car into the alton american legion. MAJOR sketch. the lady in there yelled at me to get out of the bar if i wasn't of age. she was a bitch. then when i politely asked to use the fone, she told me to make it "snappy". yea, my fucking car broke down... wtf do you want from me? seriously.
i got my report card today, along with my schedule. i did pretty well on my report card. i got all a's and b's and a c-. yay for mr. stones class :-x. i don't know what happened there for 4th quarter... i never got back any bad grades on papers? weird. oh well... GPA of 3.3130
I have my next years schedule... semester 1 A: art 1 (took and passed last year... i'm changing it and getting senior priviledge) b: english 4 at w/ TBA. C:Spanish 2 CP w/ lane D: chorus/band
Semester 2 A: Economics CP w/ Mr Clauson. B: Business and Personal Law... WEIRD w/ Crosby... who is that? is she any good? C: International Food w/ davis! :-) D: chorus/band... DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY CLASSES WITH ME!?!? LET ME KNOW!!
love, peace, and chicken grease.