so i was thinking..
ok so i was thinking about this
id rather make you happy then let myself smile, i want the best for you and for everyone even if i turn out to be miserable in the end. i dont want to be happy if it means that you're going to be sad, i dont want to laugh at all if you feel crappy. id rather feel crappy forever then you being sad for one second. i want you to feel loved even if u dont love me back. id die for you anyday, just so u could see tomorrow and have a chance to make a difference. thats what i try to do evryday, i try to make a difference in this world, if i make someone smile then my day is complete, i hate it how somepeople just go around acting like jerks to other people just because they "feel" like it, i mean seriously what good does that do? but i cant be mad at the world, so i just try to give everyone chances, im not going to dislike someone just because alot of people do, and im not going to not talk to someone even if alot of people think that they are "uncool" by their standards. sometimes i wish the world was different and that i could do something about it. but then i think that i can because just smiling at someone and being nice to them and giveing them a chance could make their whole day better...
well thats enough of my insight for one day and maybe this will be the only time i write something like this in my journal, who knows?