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he called back.
he says he regrets it.
but he doens't love me like that anymore..
THEN how can we get back together if we're meant to be?
i just dont understand.
its just.
so hard.
he says me being a jerk was part of what changed his feelings..
which i understand. how that is possible. but i told him... when he told me that i've been being a jerk.
that i would try and fix it. i aplogized like 741858520 times and he gave me like a week. he didnt even give me a week.
this is just. i can't.
everyone is telling me i can get through this.
b ut ijust feel like nothing right now.
i'm looking at his pictures, his words in the cards he has given me.
iasked him if he wanted his jewerly back. he said for me to keep it.
HE GAVE ME A PRE-PROMISE RING.
some promise.
god damnit.
his words dont mean shit now.
omg.
why?
i dont get it.
i do at the same time.
maybe time.
will heal me.
he told me not to wait for him when i asked him if i should wait for him.
this is over. i can't believe this.
i'm bitter yet completely broken hearted and yearning for him at the same time.
its horrible..
i dont know what to do.
all i can do is cry, moan and just be reminsint and cry more.
god.
cori needs to get here.
my parnets are being really good about it.
they asked if they needed to come down tonight, and we have beer so i said no..
but if i REALLY need them. i will have them come down.
there is nothing stopping him from moving to wilmington now.
nothing.
he said he doesn't know if he is or not now.
i'm like what, you have nothing to loose. go for it. meet a nice girl, get married & have kids.
i'll be a fat, poor chain smoker.
god.
i dont want to be single the rest of my life. or a swinger even.
i love him so much.
i can't do this.
if i dont start a smoking habit because of this, i'll be amazed.
fuck running.
omg.
i just blerghaioerh anw tryahwet t
.
nothing
................................
he said he just doesnt feel that way about me, yet he wants to still be friends & hang out.
HOW!
how will i handle that
?!
omg
i need to go.
smoke.
cry.
something.
god help me. PLEASE.
please help me get through this.
i can't even.
what?
i want him back so bad.
i dont even know what to do.
things i think of to say, i can't even remember.
i wanted to have CHILDREN with him.
i still do.
how is this going on? i dont understnad.
this is just aomawretiyg
i need to go.
i think i'll have my parents come down tonight. i need them really bad.
okay.
bye?
so its pretty much my own fault that he broke up with me.
cus me being a jerk was what changed his feelings so he says... he says he has changed and i have.
i just dont get it.
i asked him if he meant that brand my heard.. forever yours.
and he said he did..
and just that.
he has been thinking about it all weekend.
he has been bummed out for like a month.. questioning his feelings for me.
and i dont know.
i just wish i could change time.
i hope everything happens for a reason?
he says he regrets it.
but he doens't love me like that anymore..
THEN how can we get back together if we're meant to be?
i just dont understand.
its just.
so hard.
he says me being a jerk was part of what changed his feelings..
which i understand. how that is possible. but i told him... when he told me that i've been being a jerk.
that i would try and fix it. i aplogized like 741858520 times and he gave me like a week. he didnt even give me a week.
this is just. i can't.
everyone is telling me i can get through this.
b ut ijust feel like nothing right now.
i'm looking at his pictures, his words in the cards he has given me.
iasked him if he wanted his jewerly back. he said for me to keep it.
HE GAVE ME A PRE-PROMISE RING.
some promise.
god damnit.
his words dont mean shit now.
omg.
why?
i dont get it.
i do at the same time.
maybe time.
will heal me.
he told me not to wait for him when i asked him if i should wait for him.
this is over. i can't believe this.
i'm bitter yet completely broken hearted and yearning for him at the same time.
its horrible..
i dont know what to do.
all i can do is cry, moan and just be reminsint and cry more.
god.
cori needs to get here.
my parnets are being really good about it.
they asked if they needed to come down tonight, and we have beer so i said no..
but if i REALLY need them. i will have them come down.
there is nothing stopping him from moving to wilmington now.
nothing.
he said he doesn't know if he is or not now.
i'm like what, you have nothing to loose. go for it. meet a nice girl, get married & have kids.
i'll be a fat, poor chain smoker.
god.
i dont want to be single the rest of my life. or a swinger even.
i love him so much.
i can't do this.
if i dont start a smoking habit because of this, i'll be amazed.
fuck running.
omg.
i just blerghaioerh anw tryahwet t
.
nothing
................................
he said he just doesnt feel that way about me, yet he wants to still be friends & hang out.
HOW!
how will i handle that
?!
omg
i need to go.
smoke.
cry.
something.
god help me. PLEASE.
please help me get through this.
i can't even.
what?
i want him back so bad.
i dont even know what to do.
things i think of to say, i can't even remember.
i wanted to have CHILDREN with him.
i still do.
how is this going on? i dont understnad.
this is just aomawretiyg
i need to go.
i think i'll have my parents come down tonight. i need them really bad.
okay.
bye?
so its pretty much my own fault that he broke up with me.
cus me being a jerk was what changed his feelings so he says... he says he has changed and i have.
i just dont get it.
i asked him if he meant that brand my heard.. forever yours.
and he said he did..
and just that.
he has been thinking about it all weekend.
he has been bummed out for like a month.. questioning his feelings for me.
and i dont know.
i just wish i could change time.
i hope everything happens for a reason?