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I've had a great weekend. Hung with friends... it was nice.
I haven't been able to fall asleep in my own bed at night for about a week now. It's too lonely. I've been falling asleep on the couch, or the recliner, then when I have finally fallen asleep, and wake up in the middle of the night I move to my bed. That's another thing, I keep waking up in the middle of the night.
Things in life haunt me. They awake me in the middle of the night. Still getting cold sweats in the night. Life has been good otherwise.
I've been doing ok with everything, handling it well.... all but one thing:
I can't stop loving him. I don't want to stop loving him, because I wasn't done loving him. Even though he is done, or it appears he is done, loving me. I don't know how to quit him. I can't figure out how he's quit me, or how he could.
How do you walk away from something you weren't done with?
I haven't been able to fall asleep in my own bed at night for about a week now. It's too lonely. I've been falling asleep on the couch, or the recliner, then when I have finally fallen asleep, and wake up in the middle of the night I move to my bed. That's another thing, I keep waking up in the middle of the night.
Things in life haunt me. They awake me in the middle of the night. Still getting cold sweats in the night. Life has been good otherwise.
I've been doing ok with everything, handling it well.... all but one thing:
I can't stop loving him. I don't want to stop loving him, because I wasn't done loving him. Even though he is done, or it appears he is done, loving me. I don't know how to quit him. I can't figure out how he's quit me, or how he could.
How do you walk away from something you weren't done with?