What happens after May 2008? What will become of me? Why do people ask this question constantly? Should I answer them truthfully? Or give them something unexpected? What will you do after college? This question haunts me. Impulsively I want to scream the cliches that every undergraduate senior says: Grad school applications, GREs, real world jobs, internships, interviews, resumes, career-building blah blah blah. I feel angry when people ask me this question. How on earth am I supposed to know? I can't look into a crystal ball and predict the future. The questioner's guess is as good as mine. How dare they ask me this question. Why should I devulge my deepest dreams/ambitions to them? Who are they to question my inner most desires? What gives them the right? Them. Who is this "them" I refer to? Them is the relatives you never see at holidays, and only read about in occasional season's greeting Halmark cards, and them is the friends of your parents, old teachers, and acquaintances you've shared classes when you run into them awkwardly at the grocery store on an errand. Them is your friends from high school, who you were once your BBF and have now long forgotten you ever existed. Them is your professors as they bite the bullet knowing that you'll come knocking on their door asking them to write a recommendation letter for some graduate program or job application. Them goes on and on. At the same time I don't want to answer that question "what will you be doing after graduation?" I don't have to give them anything to go on. It's none of their damn business what my ambitions are.
EXACTLY what's on my mind right now... hang in there babe! I too feel like I have this load of pressure to figure out what do to with my life and if not that, make something up to pacify everyone who demands to know. I feel like all through college, everyone told me to take all the time I wanted, explore things and now I just want to ask the people who gave me that advice - what now?
EXACTLY what's on my mind right now... hang in there babe! I too feel like I have this load of pressure to figure out what do to with my life and if not that, make something up to pacify everyone who demands to know. I feel like all through college, everyone told me to take all the time I wanted, explore things and now I just want to ask the people who gave me that advice - what now?
Sigh, back to reading for my 5pm class.
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