Memories long since past...
They keep plaguing me. I think psychology may help it along... but they just don't go away anymore. Things I had blacked out for so long, now they don't go away. What brought them all back? I don't know. But it pisses me off. I just want all the painful things to go away. I don't want to miss things anymore, those things that I'll never have again. I just want to move on.
By the way, the present is good. Long time since journal update, but its cool. I read some journals and decided to update. Talked to Jonny tonight after work, I haven't seen him in days. May do something tomorrow. He was astounded by the fact that I work and go to school and take college classes and do plays and see friends... well, every once and a while. He's kind of the same way, well, not with so much, but with not having time... sometimes I just want to be alone, but it rarely seems to happen. I keep thinking oh, well, things will change soon, I know I'll have more time soon. I kept imagining that, only to realize after December I'll have even less time, working and going to school full time, getting ready to leave. Sometimes I wonder where all this time goes, and what its doing for me, but then I just think, well it will make things better in the future.
In the future. That seems to be what I'm living in, these days. My dreams for the future.
Fuck, I can't find my pendant. Anywhere. Fuck Fuck Fuck.
By the way, the present is good. Long time since journal update, but its cool. I read some journals and decided to update. Talked to Jonny tonight after work, I haven't seen him in days. May do something tomorrow. He was astounded by the fact that I work and go to school and take college classes and do plays and see friends... well, every once and a while. He's kind of the same way, well, not with so much, but with not having time... sometimes I just want to be alone, but it rarely seems to happen. I keep thinking oh, well, things will change soon, I know I'll have more time soon. I kept imagining that, only to realize after December I'll have even less time, working and going to school full time, getting ready to leave. Sometimes I wonder where all this time goes, and what its doing for me, but then I just think, well it will make things better in the future.
In the future. That seems to be what I'm living in, these days. My dreams for the future.
Fuck, I can't find my pendant. Anywhere. Fuck Fuck Fuck.