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so here is the thing that concerns me about eliot. the other day he just flat out said "i want to marry you". wtf? i asked him if he was smoking crack and he said he was being serious. i asked him again if he was sure he was okay...lol. here's my thinking: he likes the idea of having someone to take care of him. its not that he loves me or any of that bull, i mean cmon, he doesnt even know what my favorite food is. he doesnt know any of the small stuff like that. i really truly think he just likes the idea of having someone around to cook him dinner, to do the laundry, take care of his kid, get a lay in every now and then, etc...need i go on? its all about him in that respect. i dont think he truly has a grip on reality. he doesnt take care of me or his kid now, what would make me think he would take care of us later? or with that kind of a commitment under our belts? grr. and then he doesnt call me to find out if his son is okay. he's fine by the way, and so far he weighs a little over 7 lbs (sorry robert! lol) i just really do not understand males. does he think the same way i do? i think he does. i think the only difference between the two of us is that he procrastinates to the nth degree, while i want everything that pops into my head to have happened yesterday if not sooner. i really just dont know what to do with what he says to me. i mean to just say "hey i want to marry you"...thats like, governator-worthy. dont ask the reasoning on that, it makes sense to me. lol! now maria brooks (i think partially because of the people she works around) thinks he has bipolar....i mean really, his moods are just strange. one day he's like "oh this is great, i'm so happy"...and the next i'm having to get on him for something....which does me no good by the way, i just waste my breath talking to him half the time. he has nothing intelligent to say to me..ever. i dont think he will ever bring me down, but he sure as hell wont amount to anything. i'll give him as much as he's a hard worker. i think that is about as much as you could say about him. well, i mean, he's gorgeous but that has nothing to do with it! lol. i dont know....like i said, i think he smokes crack.