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and i just want to be playing music with others to inspire and get out what i feel i want others to know they aren't the only ones who have felt what i have-that is what art is about to me. mutual exchange of ideas.... i dream for that... am working towards the reaality but view it as though it should not be called work. and i loathe for love. i rejected it for so long and i rezalize now i want it and if you want it it will never come to you but when you want it you miss it or fuck it up or have to move or some shit. i'm attracted intensely to a few people here but there are these situations and i am just not into situations. where is the fresh and the new where are the girls and boys and why do i always feel so alone?