When i find myself in times of trouble....
so my depression is slowly starting to affect me again. im still on my meds but it feels like they arent working right. whenever im alone i get really depressed and all i do is cry. idk wats wrong with me. its not like anything bad is goin on in my life besides my mom..but thats old news. *sigh* idk wat to do...suicide is becoming a main thought again. its not like i want to do it, i just think about it, u kno? im afraid to tell mike that im getting depressed again :( hes proud of me for being happy and i cant just ruin it by being like "oh btw, im depressed again, surprise!!!" ugh..maybe doing my research paper will get my mind off of everything..