OK! So, I cant stop smiling! I'm workin' on it. Damn!
There are many emotions running throughout my body right now. Those 2 eyes, imprinted in my mind so fresh. I think of them this very second and Ill probably see them as soon as I lay down to dream. Why cant it always be this way? It’s all that I want, to hear that laugh, see that smile and look into those eyes sitting right next to you. These thoughts are stripping me of my sanity at this very moment. While sitting with him my thought pattern was going something along the lines of this “Aww.. Listen to his story, Hmm. A quickie with him would be hot about now,aww... look at him, Damn! I want to kiss you!” I love to listen to you, just to hear about things going on with you and your life. I watch myself stumble over words just to speak to you because sometime im too flustered in so many things that I want to say to you, that try to come out all at the same time. I wanted to grab you and kiss your lips off your face, yet instead I sat and listened to you, listening and thinking about if I were to just do it. I wonder what you would have done. I never gave you the letter and we have yet to have this conversation but im just going to let you know, and ‘you’ know who ‘you’ are. We argue simply because Im digging up things I know from the past just to make up for the very second that we may be arguing on the phone. and its causes argument. i want to know so much about you and i feel like at this point, i should know more than I do and sometimes that just frustrates me.and if im being agressive or pushy its simply just because I want to see you, i dont mean to come off like that. Ive fallen drawn to him like a magnet and each time I say Im going to walk away I end up right in the exact same spot.Its crazy. Id like to take a walk with him in the city at night and kiss him. And juliette if youre reading this, dont make fun of my knock knock joke! You and I know hes both managed to turn me into some type of a cheeseball or something! Just shut your trap ok?!?! Aside from all this madness above, the most important thing to me is his friendship. Alright, enough of that.. lets see, The day before yesterday I worked, it was an easy day! I only had one flatbed! thank god and no register 17! thank god! the craziest thing that happned was that I was supposed to be off at 6:30 and I ended up having to stay an extra half an hr. and then Ramon and Michelle called juliette in on my cell phone! we were so short that day. So, that was pretty much my day.. just work.
Yesterday was my day off! Whew! I got up, Julie text me talking about wanting to go eat, so her and I went to Chevys and had Joe as our server, hes awesome, way cute and said that hes going to marry julie and I. After that her and I went to Mervyns and then she dropped me off at home and was off to work. Then I came home ,sat around for a while before I went to cash my check, get gas and then christina and I went shopping. then her and I went to chilis and I took her home. I came home, cleaned my room, took a shower and hung with joey on his lunch. I dont know what im going to do about all these boys! maybe ill just become a lesbian, yea; that’ll happen and work! haha.. yea right. Why is it that anytime I tell someone im a lesbian or im going to be one, they laugh and tell me im too boycrazy to become one!!! What is that about?! heheh... ;)~ so now, im prolly going to just crash,watch a movie or write or read or something. Figure out what im going to do with my day. I know who id like hang out with today but we’ll just see what happens. Adios.
Here is a song that also relates to my situation:
"No Stopping Us" -Jason Mraz
Would it take a bakers dozen to get my point to you?
Would it take a half a pound to roll a joint for you
Would it take some hailing mary's so full of grace to get my sound to you
Will you help me break it down and get on thru
Down to the other side
Its easy of you only try
We don't lie down on the job
Because once we hit the top there's no stopping us
Should I address all my letters to the well to be
Should I say return to sender is just a well be done
Should I better not take it so personall if all the good loving is never received
Baby if it was me well I wouldn't think twice
No not i..
See its easy if you only try
We don't lie down on the job
Because once we hit the top there's no stopping us.
I will drive a thousand miles or I'll meet you at the station
If only you would take a vacation from this thing you have created
I promise to make it worth your while
So c'mon try. Baby wont you try
It's easy if you do not run
I promise you you'll have your fun
Because once we hit the top we've just begun
There's no stopping us.
Yesterday was my day off! Whew! I got up, Julie text me talking about wanting to go eat, so her and I went to Chevys and had Joe as our server, hes awesome, way cute and said that hes going to marry julie and I. After that her and I went to Mervyns and then she dropped me off at home and was off to work. Then I came home ,sat around for a while before I went to cash my check, get gas and then christina and I went shopping. then her and I went to chilis and I took her home. I came home, cleaned my room, took a shower and hung with joey on his lunch. I dont know what im going to do about all these boys! maybe ill just become a lesbian, yea; that’ll happen and work! haha.. yea right. Why is it that anytime I tell someone im a lesbian or im going to be one, they laugh and tell me im too boycrazy to become one!!! What is that about?! heheh... ;)~ so now, im prolly going to just crash,watch a movie or write or read or something. Figure out what im going to do with my day. I know who id like hang out with today but we’ll just see what happens. Adios.
Here is a song that also relates to my situation:
"No Stopping Us" -Jason Mraz
Would it take a bakers dozen to get my point to you?
Would it take a half a pound to roll a joint for you
Would it take some hailing mary's so full of grace to get my sound to you
Will you help me break it down and get on thru
Down to the other side
Its easy of you only try
We don't lie down on the job
Because once we hit the top there's no stopping us
Should I address all my letters to the well to be
Should I say return to sender is just a well be done
Should I better not take it so personall if all the good loving is never received
Baby if it was me well I wouldn't think twice
No not i..
See its easy if you only try
We don't lie down on the job
Because once we hit the top there's no stopping us.
I will drive a thousand miles or I'll meet you at the station
If only you would take a vacation from this thing you have created
I promise to make it worth your while
So c'mon try. Baby wont you try
It's easy if you do not run
I promise you you'll have your fun
Because once we hit the top we've just begun
There's no stopping us.