i'm sad
I tried to add Will back to my myspace but he has declined. I figured he would. What do I do? Why do I care? I guess I care because I miss him. I know that in early to mid January everything was fine or so I thought. Then all of a sudden nothing. I wish I knew what I did or didn't do. I know that I never fucked him over or hurt him. I'm sure of that. Maybe I am being selfish because MY feelings are hurt but how should I feel? If this were a Melissa situation I would understand. I knew that we didn't talk as much or see much of each other a lot anymore but it seems like I see less & less of people as we get older. People have work & family and making time to hang out with your friends doesn't come first. I might be stupid and not see why you don't want to be my friend anymore but I would like to know why. I am finished assuming anything. I would like an explanation as to why you deleted me from your myspace why you will not speak to me. After all this time and me being one of the only people who didn't use you or fuck you over. I feel like I deserve that. Tell me why you refuse to speak to me & why you no longer want to be my friend. I feel so stupid saying that like get over it Jodi, move on. Don't even worry about it. If he can just walk away like that fuck him. I can't be like that. I care too much to just let it go. You know me, you know how I am. Why would you just cut me out? What do you think of what I write in this thing? I'm sure you read it now & then. That's why I say all of this on here in hopes that you will see it. You might be thinking fuck you Jodi for whatever reasons but I am wondering why? And not a week goes by that I am not wondering about you. I feel like I am begging some A hole to take me back or something & that isn't me. I would like to understand you.