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Watching s3 of Skins and it's bringing up some issues. Actually didn't realize JJ had Aspergers until a bit into the season, the signs were there but I wasn't really looking. (I was actually trying really hard not to look, because the hair is freaking me out so fucking much. *Shudder*)
Anyway, it didn't really catch up with me until his episode, and then it made me sad. JJ actually reminds me quite a lot of my cousin who also has Asperger and used to have really similar scary-hair, and he's one of those Aspies who doesn't want to be an Aspie. I kinda feel sorry for him. I hardly ever see him, he lives far away and we've never talked about having AS, I mostly just know what I know through family gossip (the nice kind, not the behind-your-back, intrigue-filled kind. Well, mostly not...) but still, I sort of like being weird, or atleast that my weirdness has a name and fellow weird people. I vaguely remember occasionally wanting to be normal when I was in school and that it sucked that I wasn't, so I'm glad that passed for me and sorry it didn't for him.
The ending made me sad too, I'm pretty sure my mom would love to see me act normal for a while and that's just never gonna happen. I'm just way too comfortable in my little bubble of weirdness and solitude here. I should try and set her up with a nice single dad who has a nice normal, not-too-annoying kid, and then she could have a do-over! But then I'd have to make an actual effort, so nah. I'm an watcher, not a doer! Besides, it sounds like a bad movie with Hilary Duff. :p
I have SO MUCH I want to do! And no time to do it, because I'm either sleeping or watching TV. Mostly the first one. Mom called and asked for a doctor's appointment for me, so atleast that ball is rolling now. (Yeah, mom makes all my calls for me, I know it's lame. I have a crippling fear of making sense on command, just can't do it.) Is it bad I almost hope they find something, because I'm so tired of the usual "eat better, exercise more" crap. DON'T YOU THINK I WOULD DO THAT IF I COULD? Grrh.
Anyway, it didn't really catch up with me until his episode, and then it made me sad. JJ actually reminds me quite a lot of my cousin who also has Asperger and used to have really similar scary-hair, and he's one of those Aspies who doesn't want to be an Aspie. I kinda feel sorry for him. I hardly ever see him, he lives far away and we've never talked about having AS, I mostly just know what I know through family gossip (the nice kind, not the behind-your-back, intrigue-filled kind. Well, mostly not...) but still, I sort of like being weird, or atleast that my weirdness has a name and fellow weird people. I vaguely remember occasionally wanting to be normal when I was in school and that it sucked that I wasn't, so I'm glad that passed for me and sorry it didn't for him.
The ending made me sad too, I'm pretty sure my mom would love to see me act normal for a while and that's just never gonna happen. I'm just way too comfortable in my little bubble of weirdness and solitude here. I should try and set her up with a nice single dad who has a nice normal, not-too-annoying kid, and then she could have a do-over! But then I'd have to make an actual effort, so nah. I'm an watcher, not a doer! Besides, it sounds like a bad movie with Hilary Duff. :p
I have SO MUCH I want to do! And no time to do it, because I'm either sleeping or watching TV. Mostly the first one. Mom called and asked for a doctor's appointment for me, so atleast that ball is rolling now. (Yeah, mom makes all my calls for me, I know it's lame. I have a crippling fear of making sense on command, just can't do it.) Is it bad I almost hope they find something, because I'm so tired of the usual "eat better, exercise more" crap. DON'T YOU THINK I WOULD DO THAT IF I COULD? Grrh.