I Feel Like Myself Again.
What an emotional day.
I have gotten official permission to quit debate. To tell you the truth, I feel much better. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel like I can finally breathe and enjoy my time when I'm at speech (no longer debate). I feel like I can now focus on improving myself and being the best I can possibly be. I no longer feel extremely paranoid, frustrated, sad, and upset. I feel like myself again.
At the same time, it pains me to make this decision. Although I've given it much thought, it hurts me to leave debate right as it began to get fun. It hurts me to leave the friends I had. It makes me sad to stop being around them and having fun with them. Perhaps I should have stayed in debate so that I could still be with them.
No. I think that I made the right decision. I can live with my decision. I'm thinking about my decision now, but the price of doing all the work and expecting tremendous results outweighs the fun I had with my friends. I will miss them very, very deeply. But I feel much better. It's been a long time coming, this feeling. It feels really good to finally hold my head up and to not drag my feet in shame. Before this time, I felt like nothing. My confidence was down to the ground; my self-esteem was nothing. I feel much better about myself.
I feel better.
I have gotten official permission to quit debate. To tell you the truth, I feel much better. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel like I can finally breathe and enjoy my time when I'm at speech (no longer debate). I feel like I can now focus on improving myself and being the best I can possibly be. I no longer feel extremely paranoid, frustrated, sad, and upset. I feel like myself again.
At the same time, it pains me to make this decision. Although I've given it much thought, it hurts me to leave debate right as it began to get fun. It hurts me to leave the friends I had. It makes me sad to stop being around them and having fun with them. Perhaps I should have stayed in debate so that I could still be with them.
No. I think that I made the right decision. I can live with my decision. I'm thinking about my decision now, but the price of doing all the work and expecting tremendous results outweighs the fun I had with my friends. I will miss them very, very deeply. But I feel much better. It's been a long time coming, this feeling. It feels really good to finally hold my head up and to not drag my feet in shame. Before this time, I felt like nothing. My confidence was down to the ground; my self-esteem was nothing. I feel much better about myself.
I feel better.