dreaming?

[dotsworld7]

head in a cloud...still.. ! i dont know whats wrong with me physically , i mean i've felt like shit for 2 days now , but i'm like in a cloud , feel like this paused past week has been a dream , a love away from realality . a shit load of money spent on her part to see the city , and loosing and spending money i dnt have and not working on my part to show and tell . all for better or worse they say . i know that it was needed , and things work in weird ways sometimes . i swear it was liek a dream , like on vanilla sky (without my face being fucked up ) . she left and i didnt even know how to feel . really it is this block i have right now from not figuring out whats really going on , just striving for a life , maybe a new life , or maybe a life i once had , better yet a life i want , . striving for life.. yes to feel alive once agian to feel important and wanted in this loco world. i'm going totake things step by spet as is. put alot of work into orginizing my new place and with that orginizing the way i live . priorites and such . money=the root of all evil . can actually kill someone . well i will do everything to over come this . i just want my head to stop hurting i haven't taken medicine since like 1030am so i dont want to take anything but shit i feel like a floating Blob right now .
start my job on friday ! whowh . i will hate the drive there. but u do what u have to .
things are always complacated for me , things are alwasy rough .. well . thats my life what can i do . DEAL >

i miss me . i misss her. i miss feeling good. i miss feeling wanted. i miss alot .

i love .
i wait .
i want.
i'll try .

forever confused ..over and out!