As to the flipping burgers idea, I might not do that exactly. But I am seriously considering that kind of job where you're not so tied down as much, although the money/benefits are virtually non-existent. Maybe teaching English at a cram school on weekdays. And for emotional, internal fulfillment, I'd volunteer on the weekends. I'd be comfortably busy-ish (but not so busy that I'd feel consumed by my job, the way a lot of people center their entire lives around their careers), but not so busy that I wouldn't have any time for myself to do the silly little things I like to do sometimes. Like occasionally knitting, or drawing, or watching movies, or reading, or making little stuffed toys, or taking pictures, or writing.
I feel like maybe that kind of lifestyle would be more fitting for people like us. I'm not saying there's not a real career that would be right for you, or that you're not capable of something like that (you know me, I have no doubts whatsoever in your abilities!). But we're sort of dreamers, I think, and we like the little things in life. We like to sit at home with a cup of hot chocolate, reading a book or listening to the rain. I think we need the freedom and space to move around and explore. At least for me, I feel like if I let my job = my life, I'd lose the time and the freedom to do these things and eventually I'd just quit because I need these little things, they are what I find comfort and beauty in, they are the things that keep me going.
ANYWAY thank you again for your comment. It really means a lot to me and has opened my eyes to the fact that ITS OKAY to be confused and ITS OKAY to change my mind. It's a breath of fresh air. I feel like I've been in a crowded musty hot room and you've cracked the window open.
I know that we will both be able to find our place someday, and until then I hope that we'll both be able to forgive ourselves for changing our minds and that we'll have the courage to act on it.
But we're sort of dreamers, I think, and we like the little things in life. We like to sit at home with a cup of hot chocolate, reading a book or listening to the rain. I think we need the freedom and space to move around and explore. At least for me, I feel like if I let my job = my life, I'd lose the time and the freedom to do these things and eventually I'd just quit because I need these little things, they are what I find comfort and beauty in, they are the things that keep me going.
This is so true for me, too. It makes me so happy that you understand and experience this, too, because so few people seem to and that can make things - life; living - quite difficult.
Thank you for this reply. It really means a lot. =)
I feel like maybe that kind of lifestyle would be more fitting for people like us. I'm not saying there's not a real career that would be right for you, or that you're not capable of something like that (you know me, I have no doubts whatsoever in your abilities!). But we're sort of dreamers, I think, and we like the little things in life. We like to sit at home with a cup of hot chocolate, reading a book or listening to the rain. I think we need the freedom and space to move around and explore. At least for me, I feel like if I let my job = my life, I'd lose the time and the freedom to do these things and eventually I'd just quit because I need these little things, they are what I find comfort and beauty in, they are the things that keep me going.
ANYWAY thank you again for your comment. It really means a lot to me and has opened my eyes to the fact that ITS OKAY to be confused and ITS OKAY to change my mind.
It's a breath of fresh air. I feel like I've been in a crowded musty hot room and you've cracked the window open.
I know that we will both be able to find our place someday, and until then I hope that we'll both be able to forgive ourselves for changing our minds and that we'll have the courage to act on it.
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This is so true for me, too. It makes me so happy that you understand and experience this, too, because so few people seem to and that can make things - life; living - quite difficult.
Thank you for this reply. It really means a lot. =)
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