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I would like to thank my insane anger problems for my swollen and sore knuckles. I'll remember to do that again.
I have yet to pin point my exact reason for my spontaneous explosion....it was not loud but it was pretty fucking crazy. I am kind of liking my sudden silence. It keeps me out of trouble and gives me new things to think about really. However...its put me on the edge several times. On the contrst..when I do get edgey..I stay quiet..so its all one circle. I just hope I don;t explode on someone...that wouldn't be cool. I have a feeling my fists are going to go through a lot until I find a new way to take out my anger. Thats ok..a little pain never killed anyone...right? I would rather be pissed and in a little pain then sad anyway. Its funny..when I am quiet..people automatically think soemthing is wrong..I am so sad and all this shit. I am not sad. If anything I am prolly fairly content. In conclusion...I like my new found silence apart from the bitty side effects.
Maddie and me plan on going in for a little 151 Vodka...no clue when, but damn I hope its soon. I just hope we can get a few more people together..its always funner. If anyone it will prolly be like Ryan, Sean, Maddie, me and maybe that one Ben kid from the band. Hes pretty bad ass on a skateboard..thats cool shit right there. It might be the night I go to the Shreds show..because its at the grotto and I have to stay at Maddies anyway if I go.
'...Its like a big dark room..there are things there..you just really have to search for them...'
I have yet to pin point my exact reason for my spontaneous explosion....it was not loud but it was pretty fucking crazy. I am kind of liking my sudden silence. It keeps me out of trouble and gives me new things to think about really. However...its put me on the edge several times. On the contrst..when I do get edgey..I stay quiet..so its all one circle. I just hope I don;t explode on someone...that wouldn't be cool. I have a feeling my fists are going to go through a lot until I find a new way to take out my anger. Thats ok..a little pain never killed anyone...right? I would rather be pissed and in a little pain then sad anyway. Its funny..when I am quiet..people automatically think soemthing is wrong..I am so sad and all this shit. I am not sad. If anything I am prolly fairly content. In conclusion...I like my new found silence apart from the bitty side effects.
Maddie and me plan on going in for a little 151 Vodka...no clue when, but damn I hope its soon. I just hope we can get a few more people together..its always funner. If anyone it will prolly be like Ryan, Sean, Maddie, me and maybe that one Ben kid from the band. Hes pretty bad ass on a skateboard..thats cool shit right there. It might be the night I go to the Shreds show..because its at the grotto and I have to stay at Maddies anyway if I go.
'...Its like a big dark room..there are things there..you just really have to search for them...'