POETRY! *snaps*
Ah, Beatnik Cafe is coming up at school on May 8th! I've always loved Beatnik. It's like an all-day rant session and I love it. I just took a look at my 'FREEWRITES' document on Word which consists of 22 pages of poetry written by myself. I joined a poetry forum where I can post my poems and have gotten nothing but good feedback from other poets. Most of my stuff is about love and heart-break because I write whenever I'm like 'blah, love sucks!' Anyway, to the point, I thought 'why not have a poetic entry on LJ today?!' So here we go:
Poem #1 Author's note: This was written when a very close "friend" of mine, and the guy I liked for about 9 years, was deported suddenly. He's back, though, to finish school and to join the National Guard.
One moment you were there
The next you were gone
I thought you were safe
Turned out I was wrong
I couldn’t protect you
Couldn’t hold on
And away they took you
Without a goodbye
You had told me it was nothing
Just an innocent trip
What seemed to be nothing
Turned out to be something
When away they took you
Without a goodbye
You cared enough to protect me
But how do you expect me
To live this long without you
And not keep blaming myself
When away they took you
Without a goodbye
I cry out in my sleep
‘Don’t go, don’t go’
And I try not to weep
When time seems slow
But in the end I have to realize
That you’re not around
And no tears of mine
Can make you found
Away they took you
Without a goodbye
But I’ll wait around
I guess I’ll stick by
Poem #2 - Um, just another heartbreak theme. I really need to start dating these things 'cause I would know more background on why I wrote it if I knew when it was written, lol.
I stand outside alone
While the rain falls
And somehow I don’t notice at all
People pass me by
Going on with their busy lives
While I stand alone
I can see you in my mind
Those once upon a times -
Those that I wish were real
I can’t fight the pain
It tears me in two
But I don’t scream
And I don’t plan to
When I close my eyes
I see you by my side
And it hurts
When I open my eyes
Realizing you were never there -
You were never there with me
It takes every bit of strength
To remember I need to breathe
Then to hear the things they say
And to have to continue to play
My part in your life
It just continues to rip me apart
Because I don’t know the truth
About you
But I can’t stop
That’s my curse
This love has me in lock-down
And I can’t scream
I can’t be freed
All that I am is being
Just being one day at a time
And I don’t notice the life
That continues to live around me
Poem #3 - This one was written on New Year's Eve when I finally decided that this guy was no good and that there are other fish in the sea, right? Then, after the holiday break, I come back to school and BOOM! I meet Brendan and, yeah...
There’s no turning back
Now that I’m heading down this path
Wish I had the strength to throw it all away
But I know I’ve got nowhere to go
My life’s an unknown
I just know that I got to get away
You’re in the faces of the people passing by
You’re in every tear drop that falls from my eye
You’re embedded deep in my soul
And I know this won’t end well
But I’m lost, can’t you tell?
This ain’t right for me
You’ve never been a friend to me
Anyway, I’m leaving today
Perhaps see you another day,
But for now there’s no doubt
Gotta get out of this town
And away from you.
There’s no turning back
Now that I’m heading down this path
Wish I had the strength
To throw my feelings away
But I know I’ve got my whole life to go
My life’s an unknown
I just know that I got to get away.