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I just talked to my aunt, and she told me that my gram died tonight.
And I...uh, yeah. I talked to her on my way home, and I almost started sobbing on the bus. I didn't, though.
It's funny. Last night was all about Kevin trying to convince me to fly out there. I didn't want to spend $600 (plus take an unpaid week off work) when I wasn't sure what would be happening when I got there, but he thought I'd regret that. He kept saying he'd pay for it, he'd get his parents to pay part, and on and on. I guess it really doesn't matter now, huh?
My two aunts and one uncle were with her. My brother sounds really...not good. I'm worried about him. And I'm worried about my aunt, too. She has so much stress. On Monday she'll have a week of work to make up, although I bet she even goes to the office tomorrow and Sunday. She's like that. I weish I could help her out, but. Yeah.
I'm kind of not processing anything yet, and I'm...well, not exactly great, obviously. But she had 80 years. And she was completely healthy for all but the last one -- and she didn't want to live like that. This is what she wanted. And knowing that helps, as much as it can.
Lastly, I guess it's shitty of me to be worrying about this right now, but I have no idea what I'm supposed to do for financial aid. I don't get it.
Anyway, though. This last week has been so incredibly draining for ME, living 3000 miles away, so I can only imagine how it's been for everyone there. And...yeah.
And I...uh, yeah. I talked to her on my way home, and I almost started sobbing on the bus. I didn't, though.
It's funny. Last night was all about Kevin trying to convince me to fly out there. I didn't want to spend $600 (plus take an unpaid week off work) when I wasn't sure what would be happening when I got there, but he thought I'd regret that. He kept saying he'd pay for it, he'd get his parents to pay part, and on and on. I guess it really doesn't matter now, huh?
My two aunts and one uncle were with her. My brother sounds really...not good. I'm worried about him. And I'm worried about my aunt, too. She has so much stress. On Monday she'll have a week of work to make up, although I bet she even goes to the office tomorrow and Sunday. She's like that. I weish I could help her out, but. Yeah.
I'm kind of not processing anything yet, and I'm...well, not exactly great, obviously. But she had 80 years. And she was completely healthy for all but the last one -- and she didn't want to live like that. This is what she wanted. And knowing that helps, as much as it can.
Lastly, I guess it's shitty of me to be worrying about this right now, but I have no idea what I'm supposed to do for financial aid. I don't get it.
Anyway, though. This last week has been so incredibly draining for ME, living 3000 miles away, so I can only imagine how it's been for everyone there. And...yeah.