18 tomarrow
well... i have lived this long... very suprised byu that... quitting is hard, i keep cheating on it and havin drags when my dad lets me and jeff gave me a cig last night to calm me down cuz i wasnt feelin too good... he wants me to ask this UBER cute waitress out, though we both agree shes full lesbian, and i mean i think shes really cute n has a beautiful smile and nice eyes, but i have jenn and thats all i want... i mean ppl tell me to live in the moment... but i guess ill just see what happens, maybe ill tlak to her next week, JUST talk! and im gong to tell brianna how i feel about her next time i see her... just bout my lil.. crush thing, cuz i think tellin her will help me get over it, specially scince its kinda just... blah buggin , i got a new pent necklace, its a double, a pent in the middle of a biger pent with five red stones at the points, it works well for how i work, though i havnt done anything in a while, im gonna be doin a ritual tomarrow though ^.^ and ive got eyeliner and gel again woohoo, and a blow dryer so the gel will dry faster... still wont spike, BUT MY HAIR IS GROWIN LIKE HELL, and rod cut the poofy ness and left my bangs alone finally, and i shaved :( i got rid of my facial hair before i got pics taken... :'( but ill have pics up soon on myspace with me my pent my nipple piercings cuz no one has seen em scince i took the pins out lol... and if i can get rods damn cam to work ill have a pic of me n jeff (guy from kareoke whos like 2 times my age but is like my older bro, we have done alot of the same stuff n share war storys of ex g/f and fights n shyt lol) and um... hmm.... im gonna be doin a kareoke competition tomarrow night, im singing "Behind Those Eyes" by 3 Doors Down HELL YEAH! lol cuz i did it my FIRST time EVER last night and i did EXCELLENT, no mistakes or ANYthing... htough i thought i messed up, cuz i went up high at one point and i couldnt remember if i was supposed to or not but i heard it on the radio on the way home and i did do it right i was like OH YEAH! lol... im not gonna win but still lol, i jsut wanna have fun with it ^.^ um... wut else is there to say? HAPPY BIRTHDAY DJ! though i no he doesnt read this, but w/e, i no we are not ok right now (again) but HAPPY B-DAY (i just think summer is NOT our season to be friends lol we always have issues this time of year) ummmm.... yeah im not gettin the job at PTs cuz they want a 3 month contract and i WILL be coming home at the end of august, nothing is changing that... hmmm... besides all that i cant think of anything else to put in here... um.. miss n love u all *huggles to everyone* talk to ppl when i can
"Behind Those Eyes"
Ohh yeah
Ohh yeah
You said "I got something to say"
Then you got that look in your eye
"There is something you've got to know"
You said it as you started to cry
"I've been down the wrong road tonight
And I swear I'll never go there again"
Ive seen this face once before
And I don't think I can do this again
Theres something I cant see
There's something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And theres nothing I can say
Cause im never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
As you turned to walk away
I saw another look in your eye
And even though it hurt like it did
I couldn't let this be your goodbye.
You say that you're sorry
And you say now that it hurts you the same
Is there something here to believe
Or is it just another part of the game?
Theres something I cant see
Something living in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And theres nothing I can say
Cause im never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
Ohh yeah
Ooooooo
Ohh woah
Behind those eyes you lie
Behind those eyes you hide
Theres something I cant see
Something living in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And theres nothing I can say
Cause im never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
There's nothing I can say
That's ever gonna make you change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
Behind those eyes you lie
"Behind Those Eyes"
Ohh yeah
Ohh yeah
You said "I got something to say"
Then you got that look in your eye
"There is something you've got to know"
You said it as you started to cry
"I've been down the wrong road tonight
And I swear I'll never go there again"
Ive seen this face once before
And I don't think I can do this again
Theres something I cant see
There's something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And theres nothing I can say
Cause im never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
As you turned to walk away
I saw another look in your eye
And even though it hurt like it did
I couldn't let this be your goodbye.
You say that you're sorry
And you say now that it hurts you the same
Is there something here to believe
Or is it just another part of the game?
Theres something I cant see
Something living in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And theres nothing I can say
Cause im never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
Ohh yeah
Ooooooo
Ohh woah
Behind those eyes you lie
Behind those eyes you hide
Theres something I cant see
Something living in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And theres nothing I can say
Cause im never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
There's nothing I can say
That's ever gonna make you change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
Behind those eyes you lie