The lost path (4/5) [OnTae] (SHINee)
Pairing: Onew/Taemin, Minho/Key
Rating: NC17
Summary: Taemin was about to die but someone save him. Suddenly he found himself living with Onew and Key, two fashionistas, who help him to recover. Taemin didn’t want them to found out who he is, but Onew find himself falling for him despite that. But Taemin can’t stay, there’s someone waiting for him in Seoul
Onew gives Taemin another option, run away with him... Will Taemin drop his desire to get to Seoul for a chance to be happy?
Author's notes: Pff, nothing is going like I want. This chapter is the proof. There are still missing details and I'm thinking on doing an epilogue, since it will be hard to add all those details in the final chapter... Or maybe isn't too important to put those details but I want to write them so... Yup, I'll do it.
This chapter work as therapy, I was into crisis since my exams start tomorrow and I know absolutely nothing... Oh yeah, there are more fanfics right here!
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( Chapter 3) (Chapter 4) ( Chapter 5)
Onew didn’t look at me once we got in the car. He didn’t talk to me either. He just drove, his face without expression, his eyes glued to the road.
And I couldn’t bear it.
“I know you are upset” I said, trying to break the tense atmosphere that involved us “But I must go, I’ve risk a lot to get there”
He didn’t answer.
“But I really appreciate what Kibum hyung and you have done for me. It isn’t like I’m going to forget you, I never could do it. You saved my life, hyung”
Onew took a deep breath but didn’t say a thing. I could notice how his hands tightly clenched the steering wheel.
“I think that I haven’t thanked you properly” the words rushed out from my mouth “I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you. You took care of me, let me live in your house and feed me for free… I’ll pay you, I swear I’ll do it, but I’ll never be able to thank you enough. In fact I believe…”
“Taemin, stop it” Onew said harshly. I looked at him, confused “You are talking nonsense”
“But I must thank you…” I tried to argue.
“Thanking me won’t change the fact that you are leaving” his expression now was hurt.
“But you knew that someday I would have to go, hyung”
“Hyung? Now I’m your hyung?” Onew looked at me in disbelief “I thought we were closer than that”
“I don’t understand why you are acting like this” I told him. Onew sighed.
“That’s it” he said through gritted teeth. Onew stopped the car beside the road and stepped out. Confused, I followed him
“You think this is a game?” he yelled at me “You think that I’m playing?”
“Of course not” I replied honestly, yet I couldn’t quite understand his sudden anger.
“I won’t take you to Seoul” he told me, looking right into my eyes.
“Why?”
“I can’t let you go”
“That’s not fair. You know that I need to go”
“And I need you to stay”
I couldn’t reply. The desperation in his voice took me by surprise.
“It’s weird, isn’t it? Falling in love with someone you don’t know”
Onew was smiling but there was something wrong with his smile, the same thing that had been wrong the day before when he asked me if someone had hurt me. His smile looked broken as Onew walked towards me.
“That was the reason why I wasn’t at home yesterday. I couldn’t bear to think that you will be far away from me. I thought a lot excuses to don’t let you go, but none of them would make you stay”
“You can’t be serious” I muttered, feeling how my face grew red. Onew caressed my cheeks.
“I am. Your expressions, the way you behave, your voice, I find those things intriguing, fascinating. That was why I kissed you last night” he said, looking right into my eyes “Actually I’m not sure what made me do it. It was something that I had to do”
My breathing was uneven and my heart was about to explode. I couldn’t be in love with Onew. He was an amazing man: truthful, tender and sweet. He wasn’t supposed to be in love with me, he was too much for me. Without noticing it, the tears flowed through my cheeks. This wasn’t fair, not for me or for him.
Onew’s arms around me brought me back to reality.
“Please don’t cry”
“I’m a terrible person” I told him, trying to step away from him “You can’t love me”
“That isn’t up to you” Onew tried to remain calm “I can take care of you, protect you”
Onew leaned forward, trying to kiss me. “Don’t” I thought, but I couldn’t do anything to avoid it. That kiss made me melt and for just a second I forgot everything. Even though I was trying to deny it deep inside me I knew I felt something for him. That was why, when he broke the kiss, I didn’t object anymore.
“So what are we going to do?” I asked breathless. Onew smiled and opened the car’s door to me.
“I’ll tell you on the way”
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Running away with an unknown guy wasn’t part of my plans at all, but in that moment I was really happy that nothing turned out as I wanted.
We ended in a town a few miles away. The very first thing we did was stop in a cafeteria to eat something.
“Why do you eat so much chicken? Don’t you get bored?” I asked Onew after he ordered a huge amount of chicken. He shook his head and shrugged
“I just like it”
“Seriously?” My voice was full with sarcasm but Onew smiled.
“In case you haven’t notice it, when I like something I just go and take it”
I couldn’t help but blush.
“What are we going to do?” I asked him, trying to change the topic “I don’t have any money”
“Oh, you don’t have to worry about that. Let’s just hope that Kibum don’t miss his credit card” Onew said, patting his pocket. I frowned
“Onew, you can’t steal other people’s stuff” I scolded him.
“Jinki” he said smiling. I blinked in confusion.
“What?”
“I’m Lee Jinki. Nice to meet you Taemin” he announced, holding out his hand. I looked at his hand, unsure of what to do “You know? Normal people would shake it”
I smiled.
“In case you haven’t noticed it, I’m not normal. Try something else”
Onew- no, Jinki- seemed to consider the situation for a minute and then smiled. I felt really satisfied when he crashed his lips on mine.
After we were done eating, Jinki took me to walk through the town. It wasn’t big, there wasn’t too much to see, we just walked through the stores watching the merchandise and trying on clothing (Jinki bought some when he realized that he hadn’t any)
At some point Jinki tripped over his feet, making me laugh, but he took revenge of my by tickling me. I tried to escape from him but I ended up tripping too and falling. Jinki didn’t stop laughing until I left the store, angry and embarrassed.
The evening passed like that and by the end of the day we were exhausted, so Jinki suggested that we go to eat some ice cream.
We ended sitting in front of the ice cream shop, enjoying the last sun beams while eating huge amounts of chocolate ice cream. I started wondering what we should do next, we were absolutely free. We could go anywhere. The point was choosing where to go. Should we search for a hotel? We also have the option of driving all the night to the next town. Or we could just sleep in the car. Or drive to the beach. It would be nice to lie in the sand under the starry sky… Would Jinki like it? I didn’t even know if he liked the sea.
When I turned to ask him, I discovered that he was staring at me. He had already finished his ice cream while mine was half-finished.
“What?”
“Your smile is gorgeous” Jinki said affectionately, making me blush.
“I’ve been told so” I replied, teasing him. Jinki chuckled.
“Really?” he leaned towards me “Did someone have told you that you are beautiful?”
“Once” I became a little breathless as he got closer. Jinki’s arm embraced my waist, pulling me closer to his body, before kissing me briefly.
“Thank you” he mumbled against my lips. I blinked in confusion.
“Why?”
“For being here with me” Jinki explained “Since I left my parent’s house I’ve never being close to anyone but Key… I’m really happy of having you here, I feel like everything is starting to work again the way I wanted”
He caressed my head as I smiled.
“Nobody had told me that” I mumbled, giggling, then I tried to keep a straight face “I feel safe with you. No one had ever tried to treat me like you do. If someone has to say thank you that’s me”
Jinki looked deeply into my eyes before kissing me again.
That was a different kiss, like the one he gave me the first time. Less tender, more passionate. A clear sign of what we both wanted and now we can have. Because nobody will stop us, now we were free.
My hand got tangled in his hair deepening the kiss, letting fall the remains of the ice-cream to the floor.
“Don’t you think we should get a more private place?” Jinki suggested with hoarse voice. And all I could do was nod.
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How we arrived to that little motel room always will be a mystery to me.
My back hit loudly the bed of that tiny decrepit hotel room, but I didn’t mind since Jinki’s lips were busy with mine. His lips started going down through my jaw line, making me shiver.
“Jinki…” I stuttered when his hands started going under my shirt “Are you sure of this?”
Jinki stopped his hands on my waist.
“I guess so” he replied, confused “Are you?”
“Well… yes, but… have you ever…?”
Jinki sighed
“I’ve never done it this way if that’s what you mean” he said while staring me, making me blush “Look, I’m just as nervous as you but I really want this. And if you think I’ll hurt you, you can forget it because I swear that I’ll…”
He couldn’t finish, I didn’t let him finish. I tried to show him with that kiss that I was aware of what we were doing, that it was fine because I trusted him. His tongue asked my mouth for entrance while his hands resumed his job under my shirt.
My heart was racing, but I felt curious about Jinki’s body so slowly my hand traveled all the way down to his pants. Since I was shaking it took me a while to unbutton his pants. I felt unsure of what to do next, so I brushed his hard crotch softly, making Jinki gasp.
“Taemin…” he moaned against my ear. I smiled pleased and did it again repeatedly, making him moan higher and higher. Jinki started sucking the skin on my neck, leaving a wet road all over to my collarbone.
He forced me to sit and took my shirt away, taking a moment to stare at me before starting unbuttoning my pants. I ended naked on his hands, while Jinki kept stroking every inch of my skin.
My crotch started hurting because of all the sensations that his (damn) hands were provoking me. Yet nothing compares to the feeling I had when Jinki placed his hand on my erection. It made me gasp.
“Damn” I mumbled with uneven breathing and closing my eyes. Jinki’s hand stroked my crotch until it was difficult to me to not scream.
“Jinki… I’m going to…”
Then his hand stopped. I opened my eyes and looked him taking of his clothes. Then he turned to me and brought his fingers to my mouth. He didn’t have to say nothing to make me understand and I immediately started sucking them. When the finger where fully covered with saliva, Jinki took them out and approach them to my entrance.
“Do you trust me?” Jinki asked. I closed my eyes and nodded.
“Just do it”
It was uncomfortable, and it became a little painful when Jinki started moving it. After a while another finger got in, making me flinch.
“Relax” Jinki whispered, twisting his fingers inside me.
“That hurts” I gasped. Jinki kissed my chest and started playing with my nipples, trying to calm me down. It worked until he introduced a third finger, making me scream.
“Fuck, Jinki stop it”
“If I do so it will hurt even more” he whisper at my ear “Just hold on a little more”
I held my breath as Jinki kept moving his fingers. Little by little I started feeling something different while his fingers moved inside me. It was when Jinki touched that spot when I realized that it didn’t hurt anymore. In fact, when he found the spot I couldn’t help but moan loudly, making Jinki smile.
He took off his fingers and kissed me softly. Then, slowly, he started introducing himself into me. The pain was unbearable, so much it made my eyes got teary.
“Jinki” I groaned pitifully
“Shh, everything will be alright” he mumbled before kissing me tenderly “I love you”
I took a deep breath as he started moving back and forth. At first it was truly painful but then, when Jinki placed his hand on my crotch, the pleasure was incredible and I found myself moaning loudly
“Faster, Jinki” I requested with quickened breathing “Fuck, Jinki do it faster”
Jinki did it and my nails dug into his forearms. I could hear him moan as Jinki’s tongue ran through my ear. I felt in heaven, the emotions were overwhelming and the pleasure Jinki was giving me was indescribable.
My hips started moving on their own, making the friction even greater. I felt I was going to cum at any time as Jinki’s hand kept rubbing my erection. Then he stopped
“Jinki” I groaned in frustration
“Wait…” he told me breathless as he kept moving faster and faster inside me. When Jinki felt he was about to cum, he started rubbing again. Finally I felt him cum inside of me while I stained his abdomen with my semen.
He collapsed over me, trying to catch his breath while I stroked his hair. I felt his arms wrap my waist and suddenly I was the one over him. And as we kissed I wished it wasn’t a dream
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“Are you going to tell me?” Jinki asked while caressing my back. I frowned
“Do you really want to know?”
“I need to know” he insisted and I sighed.
It was the second night of our getaway. As soon as the sun rose we packed our bags and drove to the next town. We arrived there around noon and practically had not left that hotel room since then. We remained on the bed, looking at each other. I asked him about his family, about his job, about his life…
“My father ran a multinational company” he explained “My sister and me were raised to help with the business. At home no one talk about anything else than economics, investments and contracts. Actually my father made me study business administration, but I never liked it”
“So you left it” I conclude. Jinki nodded.
“A friend asked me to be his model in a fashion show. At first I didn’t want to do it, but when I first stepped on the catwalk I realized that I really liked it, so I kept doing it at unbeknownst to my father. When he discovered it he went crazy. We fought, I refused to quit modeling and he kicked me out of the house”
I nodded softly. Jinki had told me the truth, he always got what he want even if it means giving up the comfort of a house. I smiled, Jinki was really good.
“Now it’s your turn” Jinki said. I took a deep breath and cuddled in his arms.
“My life always was a hell” I mumbled “My father never wanted me, he only treated me fine when my mother was around. When we were alone, he insulted me and beat me”
Jinki started trembling slightly.
“Do you ever told your mom?” he asked with hoarse voice. I laugh bitterly.
“I did it once but she didn’t want to believe me” it was hard to tell it but Jinki needed to know, I needed him to know “She got sick three months ago. I didn’t want to insist and risk her health. The things got worse when she was admitted into the hospital”
My eyes filled with tears as I tried to continue.
“He didn’t care for my mom. When she died, he didn’t bother to show up at the funeral” Jinki hold me even stronger “And I didn’t bother to come back. So I took the little money I had and asked for a ride to Seoul. I was robbed on the way, but I didn’t mind… I far from Jecheon and he would hurt me anymore”
It took me a while to calm down, but Jinki’s hands caressing my back and his lips on my hair made it easier.
“But why Seoul? You aren’t in Jecheon anymore, isn’t that enough?”
“My brother… He don’t know I ran away, so I must arrive to Seoul before he notice it”
“I don’t understand” Jinki confessed.
“He is going to call me tomorrow” I tried to explain “Since he will find out that I’m not longer in Jecheon, I must arrive there so he isn’t worried”
Jinki still seemed confused.
“Tomorrow is my birthday, Minho hyung always call me on my birthday”
“Your birthday” Jinki mumbled, distracted “And you still want to go to Seoul”
“Minho hyung is the only person that has worried about me, besides you" I said “I can’t do this to him”
Jinki nodded.
“We still far from Seoul” he said “We won’t arrive there in at least a couple of days”
“Will you take me there?” I asked, surprised.
“Consider it as your birthday present” he told me smiling, though his smile wasn’t normal. I pouted “What?”
“I wanted something else as present” I said provocatively, surrounding his hips with my legs. Jinki laughed before kissing me deeply.