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Dawnie, i wanted to thank u for coming and staying with me. i really appreciated it and loved seeing u. im so sorry i wasn't my normal self and not upto doing anything and i'm sorry i was anxious. i didnt wanna make u feel it was because of u at all bcoz it wasnt.
i had slightly better day yest and managed to make some cards which was nice.
today has not been so great. ive felt tired and bit dizzy today so ive not done much apart from read and make one card.
i'm really missing john a lot at the minute. we emailed the other day and he has said hes missing me too and isnt finding it easy, but he wasnt hapy and we couldnt go on as we were. i cired when i read it bcoz i miss being able to tell him i love him and i miss him next to me at night.
i know it'll get easier with time but at the minute its very raw.
i've had someone phone me yest whos interested in exchanging with me. its in burgess hill which is where mum lives and its close to the station which is good for laura coming to see me BUT its a top floor flat(3 levels) and they dont look all that nice from the outside, so i'll go and see what its like inside but im not holding out much hope as i'm expecting it to be small. i cant go any smaller than this shoebox!and i did want a garden for millie but we'll see.
i hope ur all ok xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i had slightly better day yest and managed to make some cards which was nice.
today has not been so great. ive felt tired and bit dizzy today so ive not done much apart from read and make one card.
i'm really missing john a lot at the minute. we emailed the other day and he has said hes missing me too and isnt finding it easy, but he wasnt hapy and we couldnt go on as we were. i cired when i read it bcoz i miss being able to tell him i love him and i miss him next to me at night.
i know it'll get easier with time but at the minute its very raw.
i've had someone phone me yest whos interested in exchanging with me. its in burgess hill which is where mum lives and its close to the station which is good for laura coming to see me BUT its a top floor flat(3 levels) and they dont look all that nice from the outside, so i'll go and see what its like inside but im not holding out much hope as i'm expecting it to be small. i cant go any smaller than this shoebox!and i did want a garden for millie but we'll see.
i hope ur all ok xxxxxxxxxxxxxx