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so i must say that i am highly upset with menards, due to their scheduling, i missed several of Derek's phone calls. and i couldnt call back, because it was via calling card. grrr. DM, if u read this before your email, im off for the next three days, so you can try callin again k? funny thing was, i was hoping derek would call back, but he didnt, however, the other derek did call me. thought that was kinda odd.
not much goin on, just got home from hangin with becca, played some mancala and watched TV, same ole same ole. while i was there, saw vader, he seemed not as cranky, if thats the proper adjective to use, but i was all shaking and nervous when he was in the room, weird isnt it? i hate when people make me nervous like that, its not cool. go figure hes one of those people. tomorrow i get to prime my room, so that i can paint it friday or saturday, whoop whoop...gonna be fun....my room needs some color, Jay did it all nice, i just get to add the finishing touches.
oh heres a cliche, not like me to use cliches, but you know how they say you dont know what you have til you lose it? well thats true. i finally called alan tonight to apologize for the way i was towards him and being such a bitch and he just seemed kinda out of it, nonchalant in a way. part of it was coz he was stoned, im sure, but i feel so bad for the way things turned out between us. he was the perfect guy, i mean he could have been everything i needed, picking up for my downfalls, but i was such a bitch. i really gotta stop being bitchy to guys i like, i mean honestly, how many times has that burned me now? but anyways, he thinks his unit is being deployed in october, that made me kinda sad, i wanna see him before he leaves, and really apologize, and try to get back the friendship like we had at least. i dunno, i guess i shall wait and see, i told him to call me sometime, and ironically enough, he said "i'd like that" as if he was waiting for my permission. that was the only odd thing about the conversation.
i dunno, more to say, but my thoughts arent really in order, i think im gettin tired.
not much goin on, just got home from hangin with becca, played some mancala and watched TV, same ole same ole. while i was there, saw vader, he seemed not as cranky, if thats the proper adjective to use, but i was all shaking and nervous when he was in the room, weird isnt it? i hate when people make me nervous like that, its not cool. go figure hes one of those people. tomorrow i get to prime my room, so that i can paint it friday or saturday, whoop whoop...gonna be fun....my room needs some color, Jay did it all nice, i just get to add the finishing touches.
oh heres a cliche, not like me to use cliches, but you know how they say you dont know what you have til you lose it? well thats true. i finally called alan tonight to apologize for the way i was towards him and being such a bitch and he just seemed kinda out of it, nonchalant in a way. part of it was coz he was stoned, im sure, but i feel so bad for the way things turned out between us. he was the perfect guy, i mean he could have been everything i needed, picking up for my downfalls, but i was such a bitch. i really gotta stop being bitchy to guys i like, i mean honestly, how many times has that burned me now? but anyways, he thinks his unit is being deployed in october, that made me kinda sad, i wanna see him before he leaves, and really apologize, and try to get back the friendship like we had at least. i dunno, i guess i shall wait and see, i told him to call me sometime, and ironically enough, he said "i'd like that" as if he was waiting for my permission. that was the only odd thing about the conversation.
i dunno, more to say, but my thoughts arent really in order, i think im gettin tired.