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Thursday night...an almost all nighter. Friday night...bedtime at 730 am. Tonight...615 and i'm still up.
I've always understood why I can never sleep...I always have to much on my mind to sleep. Tonight I figured out why...I let to much bother me and I don't care enough about the right things. I let little things people say or do bother me instead of taking care of myself physically or mentally or what not. I've always been a little overweight and I didn't eat to healthy all that often, but this year for some reason its gotten worse. I eat all the time, I don't eat healthy, I straight up don't take care of my body. And why do I eat so much? Cuz it's my solution when I start to worry to much...do you see the vicious cycle here? Cuz now I do. Something's gotta be done.
Add this to the list of things to do. Still #1 on that list is discovering myself and bringing out the real me. I know everyone says they aren't their true self or they don't act like themselves and that's normal. I'm the same way, yet I'm different to, and if you don't believe me...good. After talking to my favorite girl from the UP sara, she helped me realize it's all about priorities and finding what is importan to you and what NEEDS to be important to you. Timo's going through reconstruction right now with everything, and he'll be a better person when it's done. And if you don't like him...too bad. All this talk and no show hmmmm sounds like I need to get working starting oh I dunno how about now.
Goodnight lovers and non-nice people.
Tim.
P.S. I can't wait for coheed to hit town.
I've always understood why I can never sleep...I always have to much on my mind to sleep. Tonight I figured out why...I let to much bother me and I don't care enough about the right things. I let little things people say or do bother me instead of taking care of myself physically or mentally or what not. I've always been a little overweight and I didn't eat to healthy all that often, but this year for some reason its gotten worse. I eat all the time, I don't eat healthy, I straight up don't take care of my body. And why do I eat so much? Cuz it's my solution when I start to worry to much...do you see the vicious cycle here? Cuz now I do. Something's gotta be done.
Add this to the list of things to do. Still #1 on that list is discovering myself and bringing out the real me. I know everyone says they aren't their true self or they don't act like themselves and that's normal. I'm the same way, yet I'm different to, and if you don't believe me...good. After talking to my favorite girl from the UP sara, she helped me realize it's all about priorities and finding what is importan to you and what NEEDS to be important to you. Timo's going through reconstruction right now with everything, and he'll be a better person when it's done. And if you don't like him...too bad. All this talk and no show hmmmm sounds like I need to get working starting oh I dunno how about now.
Goodnight lovers and non-nice people.
Tim.
P.S. I can't wait for coheed to hit town.