Closure
Well I managed to survive the entire BBQ thing with Matt, as much as I try to tell him how I feel and try to pry some kind of response out of him I just can't do it. This weekend was my last active attempt at trying to get any type of response from him.
As far as I am concerned its now time to move on and try to salvage our friendship from it, I am almost certain that we can but I need to have space away from him and learn how to build up my mental blocks to stop him getting in between the cracks.
Now all I need to do is go and get some sleep, have got a new contract that starts tomorrow, just a shame that it's in the arse end of Leeds, its gonna take me 3 hours each day just to get to and from work. Quicker I get my test past the better.
As far as I am concerned its now time to move on and try to salvage our friendship from it, I am almost certain that we can but I need to have space away from him and learn how to build up my mental blocks to stop him getting in between the cracks.
Now all I need to do is go and get some sleep, have got a new contract that starts tomorrow, just a shame that it's in the arse end of Leeds, its gonna take me 3 hours each day just to get to and from work. Quicker I get my test past the better.