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i cant believe april is almost over...
i cant believe its 2010....
i've been out of school for almost 2 years...
it feels like yesterday when i was in high school...
the days pass so quickly. wake up. go to work. go home eat dinner and sleep. rinse and repeat. my weekends are booked months in advance. before i know it, its another month gone.
is this what the rest of my life is going to be like? randomly stopping to acknowledge the date, and how much time has passed? constantly putting off things i want to do for things i have to do? sometimes i think to myself, tonight when i get home i'll start writing or pick up my guitar. but it never happens. i'm so emotionally and mentally drained that i just want to shut down...i barely even want to have sex. i just want to go to sleep in john's arms and forget about everything.
my life isnt even bad...i have a good job, it stresses me and i hate it most of the time but at least i have one. i have a lot of great friends whom i care about deeply. i just wish i could see them more. i have a wonderful boyfriend that i want to spend the rest of my life with. but its all moving too quickly for me to wrap my head around.
i'm going to be 26 in a few weeks. the thought of that makes me sick. i still feel like a dumb 18 year old.
i dont know where the past 2 years of my life has gone...
and soon i'll be 28...30...35.....
thinking of marriage...managing a mortgage...having children....and watching them grow up too fast just like i did...
i cant believe its 2010....
i've been out of school for almost 2 years...
it feels like yesterday when i was in high school...
the days pass so quickly. wake up. go to work. go home eat dinner and sleep. rinse and repeat. my weekends are booked months in advance. before i know it, its another month gone.
is this what the rest of my life is going to be like? randomly stopping to acknowledge the date, and how much time has passed? constantly putting off things i want to do for things i have to do? sometimes i think to myself, tonight when i get home i'll start writing or pick up my guitar. but it never happens. i'm so emotionally and mentally drained that i just want to shut down...i barely even want to have sex. i just want to go to sleep in john's arms and forget about everything.
my life isnt even bad...i have a good job, it stresses me and i hate it most of the time but at least i have one. i have a lot of great friends whom i care about deeply. i just wish i could see them more. i have a wonderful boyfriend that i want to spend the rest of my life with. but its all moving too quickly for me to wrap my head around.
i'm going to be 26 in a few weeks. the thought of that makes me sick. i still feel like a dumb 18 year old.
i dont know where the past 2 years of my life has gone...
and soon i'll be 28...30...35.....
thinking of marriage...managing a mortgage...having children....and watching them grow up too fast just like i did...