these sheets tell of regret
this weekend was pretty cool. instead of jenn and ashly coming to my house, i just went to ashleys. then we went to the mall and i spent money i wasnt suppose to spend bu w.e. we laughed a lot alot alot. people gaves us weird looks. i havent laughed like that in forever it seems. then ashleys stepdad picked us up and we went to her house. she fell asleep. i stayed up online talking to josh till 1:30 and then he signed off and i decided to go to bed but then i got this random text from a number i didnt know. it said "i know what you are doing now." which wicked creeped me out lol. i asked who it was and it ended up being joe haha. so then he called me and we talked about stupid shit until 3 in the morning lol. we're maried and havea son ithink lol.
saturday i woke up around 10:30 and watched two movies on TV and went online for a bit and ha soup in a cup and then my mom came and picked me up around 2ish. i got home and called jackie and then jackie came and picked me up and i hung out with her and we went to the emerald mall. and then we went to unos. i played with the mini pizza boxes and put on a play with them. the waiter definately thought i was on something. then me and jackie stopped by best buy and she bought, requiem for a dream, lucky number slevin, and miami vice. then we went to my house and just watched requiem for a dream because i ended up falling asleep like a loser. she woke me up around 8:30 this morning to tell me she was leaving. then i slept until 9:30.
and i pretty much did nothing today except clean my room. i have work @5 so people should come visit me :) that would be pretty awesome.
most of the time, i feel ok. but sometimes, idk, i feel lonely. like i dont know exactly what i want anymore. sometimes i want to be in a relationship with someone but other times, i feel im better off. i wish i could make up my mind, things would be a wholelot easier. idk, im trying to go with the flow, just kind letting thing take their course, but its just not working out. and it doesnt help that i feel like he is pushing me away. im so afraid of losing one of my only best friends :( i dont know what to do anymore..
saturday i woke up around 10:30 and watched two movies on TV and went online for a bit and ha soup in a cup and then my mom came and picked me up around 2ish. i got home and called jackie and then jackie came and picked me up and i hung out with her and we went to the emerald mall. and then we went to unos. i played with the mini pizza boxes and put on a play with them. the waiter definately thought i was on something. then me and jackie stopped by best buy and she bought, requiem for a dream, lucky number slevin, and miami vice. then we went to my house and just watched requiem for a dream because i ended up falling asleep like a loser. she woke me up around 8:30 this morning to tell me she was leaving. then i slept until 9:30.
and i pretty much did nothing today except clean my room. i have work @5 so people should come visit me :) that would be pretty awesome.
most of the time, i feel ok. but sometimes, idk, i feel lonely. like i dont know exactly what i want anymore. sometimes i want to be in a relationship with someone but other times, i feel im better off. i wish i could make up my mind, things would be a wholelot easier. idk, im trying to go with the flow, just kind letting thing take their course, but its just not working out. and it doesnt help that i feel like he is pushing me away. im so afraid of losing one of my only best friends :( i dont know what to do anymore..