Jun 16, 2005 13:25
So yesterday larissa came over and we made complete idiots of ourselves!
We sunbathed nude again, but this time in my back yard, and I told her " As a test of our friendship, will you rub baby oil on my ass?!" haha and you know what?!
SHE DID IT!
haha! What a great friend! Yah, so now my bum is all burnt! :(
Today is one of those lazy, chillin' on the couch days. I kinda like it!
All summer, every day, I've been on the go, so this day feels SOO nice!
I can't wait to be an adult. For many reasons, but one of them is James.
I'm starting to care about him, and the part that bothers me the most is I promised myself not to get sucked in.
He is everything I've ever wanted, and he seems to bring out the best in me, but i fight it.
Why?
I can't explain it. I'm such a mixture of everything. I wish I knew myself. I just know that, for once in my life, I want to be responsible.
I rememeber, the entire time i was with Drew, I enjoyed being irresponsible, but now, all I want to do is prove myself to my mom. Show her that I understand now.
I don't like this growing up thing.
<3