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you can't say SORRY to a person who is already dead
even though it has been months since both of my grandmas died. i still feel the pain inside, i want it to go away.....
if i could go back in time to say sorry to my inang garciana, i would want to say sorry. but i can't
i hate the pain i feel inside, why must i feel this way. i hate it i want to go away...hence me doing bad things.
i started smoking when you died inang garcy. i smoked a pack of cigs when you died, i thought the pain would go away. why did you leave me??, i didn't even get to say sorry or to thank you.
then a month later, my grandma in the Philippines died. WTF is that. i didn't even get to see her, it has been 3 fucken long years since i seen her in person..i was suppose to come visit you this coming summer. the only time i seen her was in her casket in the philippines.
Couldn't you just wait?? Why did you hav to leave me now?? I didn't even get to see you....
I just wish the pain would just go away........