i'd give you my heart and the skin on these bones..
One thing i have to say is...
Dwightness7: and then i just realized that all i can be for now to not lose you is your friend and i was like "dude a man gotta do what a man gotta go so stop beeing such a whimp and jsut be friends with her"lol
thats part of the convo between me and dwight about five minutes ago its 310. but anyway. Before that he imed me and was like "we have to talk" and blah blah blah basically told me he didnt want to lose me and he cared about me to much.. and blah blah blah. Alls well that Ends well.
Tho, someone seems to think i dont "deserve dwight" Fuck her. Anyway.
School today was okay. I had to do twenty pushups in geo cuz i didnt get the damn ws that was for homework, therfor i couldnt do it. WHATEVER! BITCH! grr i hate mr john. but anyway. church last night was thaaaa shit. EAC was there!!! Yay!!! We still convinced ryan we were twins, wich was superb. I sang with Brooke for the first time in over a month. It was amazing, tho two out of the three songs, i did not know. For i had never sung them before. But i did... okay? Maybe? Anyway. We watched someof Part Three from the Jesus movie.... ahhhh i missed half of it. Im so angred. I've gotta rent it, its awesome. Next week we get to watch the murder of jesus, and him walking again three days later. So, thats gonna be amazing as well. But anyway, dont let me bore you. Today over all was mucho better. dude, the sophmores, juniors, and seniors who would ride my bus if we werent at the frosh center.. they had to ride today. So brandy and andrew and marissa.. and all them were on the bus. It was so pimp. Thought i'd share.
Gaaaah. Up until today, I have been perfectly fine with who i am, for months now, really. And all of a sudden today, I just... was looking at myself in the locker room mirror, and I felt so... gross. Its so wierd, because how i see myself at school, then at home, are completely two different things. At school I get this "sick ass" feeling, but a home, I actually like how I like. I dont know what it is that does it, but.. Idk. For some reason, i cant stand myself today. I feel ugly, and gross, ah, who knows. whatever.