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Josh broke up with me.
Oddly enough, I'm okay. I wasn't at first. He never really said "it's over". He just said he needed time to think, and to every question I asked him, he said "I don't know". I asked him if he still loved me... "I don't know". I knew it was over by then. That was Saturday.
I asked him to come see me tonight at work. I begged him not to leave me. Then when he said he was sorry. I told him I hated him and that he would never find anyone who would love him like I did. Basically, that he would never find anyone as good as me. Ha. Then I cried and told him I was sorry, that was just upset. Then I just stood there and thought for a moment. And I realized that if loosing Courtney taught me anything, it's that life is too short to be upset. I'm not going to hold a grudge against him. I still love him, and I understand what he's going through. Five months ago, I went through the same thing. I guess we'll see what happens. If we aren't meant to be, then we aren't. But, I'm not going to sit around and worry about it. If we get back together, then we'll see.
As of now, I'm going to concentrate on school. Maybe take off this weekend for a while, go visit a friend. I need a vacation. ^^
But, Josh and I are still friends. I still love him and care about him. In fact, we're going to a movie tomorrow night, because he owes me. ^^ Hopefully Dobber is working tomorrow night, so he'll take out my garbage and I can get out off there quick.
Oh yeah - I dyed my hair blonde. Extremely blonde, pretty much bleached it. I missed a few spots.... I was talking to my friend Greg on the phone while I was doing it. I guess I shouldn't have been.
Well, that's all for now.
Oddly enough, I'm okay. I wasn't at first. He never really said "it's over". He just said he needed time to think, and to every question I asked him, he said "I don't know". I asked him if he still loved me... "I don't know". I knew it was over by then. That was Saturday.
I asked him to come see me tonight at work. I begged him not to leave me. Then when he said he was sorry. I told him I hated him and that he would never find anyone who would love him like I did. Basically, that he would never find anyone as good as me. Ha. Then I cried and told him I was sorry, that was just upset. Then I just stood there and thought for a moment. And I realized that if loosing Courtney taught me anything, it's that life is too short to be upset. I'm not going to hold a grudge against him. I still love him, and I understand what he's going through. Five months ago, I went through the same thing. I guess we'll see what happens. If we aren't meant to be, then we aren't. But, I'm not going to sit around and worry about it. If we get back together, then we'll see.
As of now, I'm going to concentrate on school. Maybe take off this weekend for a while, go visit a friend. I need a vacation. ^^
But, Josh and I are still friends. I still love him and care about him. In fact, we're going to a movie tomorrow night, because he owes me. ^^ Hopefully Dobber is working tomorrow night, so he'll take out my garbage and I can get out off there quick.
Oh yeah - I dyed my hair blonde. Extremely blonde, pretty much bleached it. I missed a few spots.... I was talking to my friend Greg on the phone while I was doing it. I guess I shouldn't have been.
Well, that's all for now.