I hope this is just in my head
ok after tonight I think I've come to a realization, the friendship I once had with Mandi is no longer there. I mean the friendship is still there but friendship we had before just isn't tonight I was standing right next to her and I felt miles away. Even a bit after we started going out the way we were around each other I could feel changing to the point now it just kinda seems forced. Even with Joe things just seems force to have anything close to the friendship we once had. Sure we're all dealing with some seriously fucked up shit in our lives and they are just starting to go out and everything but it just seems like when I'm around them is more towards them and I'm just an 3rd wheel. I dunno maybe this is the way Joe and everybody felt around us when we were going out or maybe its just all in my head (i hope so). I know they will always be there for me and visa versa but I guess the lesson for today kids is be cautious about going out with your friends because things just might change.