The fear of Rejection
So let me start out truthful- I'm a very selfish person, and insecure. i want evey one i know to love me the best and think that i am awesome. and i accept this about myself, because it cant be helped. And i kind of like it that way.
i was just dorking around live journal and i found an old friends journal. this guy, what can i say about him? when i used to live in the dorms we used to have really good conversations, he saved my computer, he used to be "dead (insert name here) on a stick" and jump around in my doorway. and i miss him.
the problem is that i dont think he'll really remember me as a friend. i'm very guarded at times and i dont think i ever told him how much his time, and really, he, ment to me. I'm such a fucking ass.
oh well, cant dwell on the past right? but i do.
i was just dorking around live journal and i found an old friends journal. this guy, what can i say about him? when i used to live in the dorms we used to have really good conversations, he saved my computer, he used to be "dead (insert name here) on a stick" and jump around in my doorway. and i miss him.
the problem is that i dont think he'll really remember me as a friend. i'm very guarded at times and i dont think i ever told him how much his time, and really, he, ment to me. I'm such a fucking ass.
oh well, cant dwell on the past right? but i do.