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Ugh. How could I be so blind and believe he actually liked me?
I'm so stupid. I made a complete fool of myself believing him.
Looking back at old entries makes me so angry with myself -_-
I don't understand why he waited so long... it was a waste of his time. I was a waste of his time. And it pretty much was a waste of my time, too. I thought things were going fine, but they weren't. Well, for him at least.
This is why I have the hardest time believing guys when they say they like me.
But anyways. Me and Erik go back out[yeah, I know. you're probably thinking 'how can she be going out with someone already when she just got out of a relationship not even a week ago?' but it's not like there was anything between me and nick anyways, and that there ever will be again]
A lot of you that know mine and Erik's past are probably like 'wtf are you doing Sam? I thought you learned your lesson, blah blah.' But hopefully things will be different. Erik insists that he won't hurt me again and all, but it's hard to trust guys. I haven't had the best experiences with them lately. Every guy says they won't hurt you, but they always do. Even if they don't know they are. It always happens. Blarg. I dunno anymore. If me and Erik don't work out this time, it will definitely be the last time. No more going back.
On to other things. Yesterday I hung out with Kourtni, Hill, Kyle, Erik, and Kourtni's mom alllll day. Ah, it was so much fun. I love just hanging out around Kourtni's pool. It's relaxing, even if we are laughing our asses off. Kourtni shall have pictures up on her lj of our trip, too. Which happen to be really bad pictures of me >< Oh well. It was fun :]
All in all, the past couple days have been great. Very much needed.
♥♥
I'm so stupid. I made a complete fool of myself believing him.
Looking back at old entries makes me so angry with myself -_-
I don't understand why he waited so long... it was a waste of his time. I was a waste of his time. And it pretty much was a waste of my time, too. I thought things were going fine, but they weren't. Well, for him at least.
This is why I have the hardest time believing guys when they say they like me.
But anyways. Me and Erik go back out[yeah, I know. you're probably thinking 'how can she be going out with someone already when she just got out of a relationship not even a week ago?' but it's not like there was anything between me and nick anyways, and that there ever will be again]
A lot of you that know mine and Erik's past are probably like 'wtf are you doing Sam? I thought you learned your lesson, blah blah.' But hopefully things will be different. Erik insists that he won't hurt me again and all, but it's hard to trust guys. I haven't had the best experiences with them lately. Every guy says they won't hurt you, but they always do. Even if they don't know they are. It always happens. Blarg. I dunno anymore. If me and Erik don't work out this time, it will definitely be the last time. No more going back.
On to other things. Yesterday I hung out with Kourtni, Hill, Kyle, Erik, and Kourtni's mom alllll day. Ah, it was so much fun. I love just hanging out around Kourtni's pool. It's relaxing, even if we are laughing our asses off. Kourtni shall have pictures up on her lj of our trip, too. Which happen to be really bad pictures of me >< Oh well. It was fun :]
All in all, the past couple days have been great. Very much needed.
♥♥