Emo whining...
I don't know how to do a cut, because I suck, so this entry is just this entry...sorry.
I love being a friend. I love having and making friends. I love being a best friend. But I miss being a girlfriend. I just came to realize the other day, that for all intensive purposes, I have been single for the entire year of 2007. Don't get me wrong, it's been a pretty good year thus far, but still. I watched my best friend fall in love and get engaged, along with many, many other people I know fall in love, get engaged and or hitched, and either get knocked up or have a kid.
Don't take that the wrong way or anything, I've been engaged twice, I don't want another any time soon. But I would like to meet a decent person already. One who actually makes a good relationship with me. Someone who I enjoy being with and all.
But everyone I meet seems to look at me one of two ways. Either I'm a friend or a lover. I'm never "that girl I like and I'm also attracted to and I think we could have a relationship together."
Basically I'm a great friend and we can joke around and hang out and have tons of fun together but nothing more "romantic" is ever though of, or I'm the one that they think is attractive and they'd love to get me in bed/love having me in bed, but a relationship!?!?? Oh God NO! That would never work out.
I can't seem to figure out why this is. People don't want to date me. At least no anyone that would be someone I would want to date, and doesn't the whole relationship thing only work if I like the person and want to date them too?
Sorry, I'm ranting about this because I'm feeling angst-y and depressed.
Tomorrow at work I'm going to see if I can get free counsellings though my job. I"m going to try to get rid of this 15 yr old emo kid living in my skull.
On a happy note, mom called, (yeah not usually happy) but I passed my written state boards. I ended up spending way too much money at the vintage shop to celebrate, good stuff though, so whatever.
Anyway, who knows if I'll keep this post up, it's super whiney, but oh well, I'll probably be too lazy to take it down and it'll just be a tribute to my inner emo.
I love being a friend. I love having and making friends. I love being a best friend. But I miss being a girlfriend. I just came to realize the other day, that for all intensive purposes, I have been single for the entire year of 2007. Don't get me wrong, it's been a pretty good year thus far, but still. I watched my best friend fall in love and get engaged, along with many, many other people I know fall in love, get engaged and or hitched, and either get knocked up or have a kid.
Don't take that the wrong way or anything, I've been engaged twice, I don't want another any time soon. But I would like to meet a decent person already. One who actually makes a good relationship with me. Someone who I enjoy being with and all.
But everyone I meet seems to look at me one of two ways. Either I'm a friend or a lover. I'm never "that girl I like and I'm also attracted to and I think we could have a relationship together."
Basically I'm a great friend and we can joke around and hang out and have tons of fun together but nothing more "romantic" is ever though of, or I'm the one that they think is attractive and they'd love to get me in bed/love having me in bed, but a relationship!?!?? Oh God NO! That would never work out.
I can't seem to figure out why this is. People don't want to date me. At least no anyone that would be someone I would want to date, and doesn't the whole relationship thing only work if I like the person and want to date them too?
Sorry, I'm ranting about this because I'm feeling angst-y and depressed.
Tomorrow at work I'm going to see if I can get free counsellings though my job. I"m going to try to get rid of this 15 yr old emo kid living in my skull.
On a happy note, mom called, (yeah not usually happy) but I passed my written state boards. I ended up spending way too much money at the vintage shop to celebrate, good stuff though, so whatever.
Anyway, who knows if I'll keep this post up, it's super whiney, but oh well, I'll probably be too lazy to take it down and it'll just be a tribute to my inner emo.