Tis the season for break-ups?
So I'm pretty sure John and I are over. It's my fault. I have massive anger issues and he's the one I take it out on. Which has always been my problem. I take all my anger out on the people I'm closest to and love. So I just looked up some psychiatrists that are covered by my insurance. I'm planning on making a few calls later today. I had a great
( Read more... )
I'm going to be a little harsh here- and know that I never follow my own damn advice, so hypocrisy is not far from me- but in all truth, the cliche here applies: you cannot choose who you love, but you can do better. Sometimes I worry for you because of the trap we all fall into: that fear of being alone, which ties us to people who really don't help us. Consider something: you are in school, though I am rightly pissed at you for what you've done to yourself this semester, any individual who is not in school doesn't really have a fucking foot to stand on when it comes to dictating to you how THEY feel you should treat them. Yes, Johnny boy has a right to walk away from verbal abuse; however, ask yourself what he has done to help you in school? Has he been supportive of what you needed to do, and should've been doing, this semester to graduate??? Drunk at Cue Club does not get you a diploma.
You are so much better. Though I am guilty of it myself, and I still trip over my own bullshit, stop being afraid of being alone. It sucks. It fucking hurts. But once that wound heals, you are fucking unstoppable. You deserve a real guy- a pair of balls with ambition beyond working the front door.
Penises have a tendency to drag you down, but really, you are ultimately responsible for it. Talk to whomever you need to, but realize that you have all the power in you to do it, and its about time the people in your life recognized that instead of telling you all of the 'help' you need. Jessi, sweetheart, you are smart enough, able enough and have the hunger to succeed.
Reply
Reply
Leave a comment