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If I don't get a job very soon I don't know what I'll do. I'm clinging on to the fact that there may be a sliver of hope that I will get a car once I get a job. I went to a place today to apply. I'd like to say it went well, but I'm really not sure. I was my bright and bubbly self, so I know that part should be good. The guy said it was a 3-step process and that all he was there for was getting a first impression. He said I seemed very "nice" so I'm not sure if I should take that as a compliment or the kiss of death. He said it will basically come down to whether or not they need more girls. Because they have to be fair and all that. It's a sad reality, but how often do you see not-so-pretty girls in most restaurants. And I mean main-stream pretty. In any case I really really hope I get this job. Especially if I work anywhere in the bar. I need a good reason to start working on my bartending school again. Well, what I really need is a swift kick in the ass. Right now I am more that willing to take any job I can find. But I am focusing really hard on trying to get in at a restaurant because that is what I really want to do. I feel that the past few years of my life have been a colossal waste of my time as far as work goes. Eventually...maybe back in school. But the fact is I just don't know what I want right now. I'm focusing on what I want to do for now...not what I want to do forever. Baby steps. I've been setting a lot of short term goals rather than major long term ones. It seems to be working for the best. It's just so frustrating right now. But I know that even if I can't control the circumstances, I can control how I react to them.