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Bought this book recently.
I'm glad to have found it. It's been difficult to find anything about feminine spirituality unless it's just wicca stuff. Really even anything just about women with the big woo.
So far it's been good, and I'm grateful for it.
Found it here: http://awakeningwomen.com/shop/books/
They've other recommendations as well. I hope they're as fertile. I may be looking for those books as well.
T is out on some weekend training/camping thing. Yay for him.
Got the house to myself which gives me time to ruminate and get lonesome.
It's the source of the depression, that ruminating.
I worry that he doesn't want to be there for me.
Though I've no actual evidence of that.
I can get used to someone being there for me after a while. 22 and a half years is quite a while.
Wouldn't be inaccurate to say I'm still in love.
But then I've often thought looking back that I was in love with my best friends.
I'm not sure those things, being "in love" and being "best friends" are all that different.
These ladies in the book, many of them had some pretty extreme depressions before some pretty radical awakenings. That actually helps me feel better.
I'm trying to give myself permission to just be. My thinking can be so so critical. I worry what others will think of me. And really for the most part, people are just involved with their own thing, they don't care what you do if it doesn't directly affect them. We're all fighting our own battles. And people can be truly kind too.
I notice if I want kindness, perhaps it's a good thing to offer it to myself.
What a strange world. There's a lot going on, even if it doesn't look like much on the surface, there really is a lot.
I'm glad to have found it. It's been difficult to find anything about feminine spirituality unless it's just wicca stuff. Really even anything just about women with the big woo.
So far it's been good, and I'm grateful for it.
Found it here: http://awakeningwomen.com/shop/books/
They've other recommendations as well. I hope they're as fertile. I may be looking for those books as well.
T is out on some weekend training/camping thing. Yay for him.
Got the house to myself which gives me time to ruminate and get lonesome.
It's the source of the depression, that ruminating.
I worry that he doesn't want to be there for me.
Though I've no actual evidence of that.
I can get used to someone being there for me after a while. 22 and a half years is quite a while.
Wouldn't be inaccurate to say I'm still in love.
But then I've often thought looking back that I was in love with my best friends.
I'm not sure those things, being "in love" and being "best friends" are all that different.
These ladies in the book, many of them had some pretty extreme depressions before some pretty radical awakenings. That actually helps me feel better.
I'm trying to give myself permission to just be. My thinking can be so so critical. I worry what others will think of me. And really for the most part, people are just involved with their own thing, they don't care what you do if it doesn't directly affect them. We're all fighting our own battles. And people can be truly kind too.
I notice if I want kindness, perhaps it's a good thing to offer it to myself.
What a strange world. There's a lot going on, even if it doesn't look like much on the surface, there really is a lot.