Pahty in da Club...
Ahhh...tonight was good times. I don't even mind the fact that it's torrentially downpouring outside. I rather like the sloshing rains hitting my window so I can snuggle up safely into my ridiculously comfortable bed....I'll definitely be heading there soon! J. and I ventured out into Boston, and hit up the Rack and Jose Mac's. I love being with just her, because she's totally drama-free and carefree fun.
The girl/guy ratio at the Rack was pitiful, and after an hour or so of dancing away while swarms of girls danced around us, we figured we should head some place where the guy factor was a bit higher. Conveniently, C. happened to be at Jose Mac's with some friends, so we headed there to join them. I think the last time I saw C. was in early December. We occasionally would keep in touch through txt or phone calls, but I hadn't actually hung out with him in a few months. Apparently the hiatus worked to my favor...I don't think I've ever had a guy tell me I was hot as many times as he did in one night! It was definitely a surprise, coming from someone as laid back as he is. It totally changed my perspective on how things were with us.
I have no idea what's going to happen, I just know that I feel quite torn about it all. Hmm... It seems like all the Christian guys I've gone on dates with recently have totally flaked out on me, but the guys who aren't Christians, but are incredibly sweet and respectful, make me want to pursue things further. I know from experience that dating someone who doesn't have a relationship with the Lord the way I do is pointless, because I'd end up getting attached, and in the end have to break it off. If I'm going to date someone, eventually that could lead to a serious relationship, and I firmly believe that a truly satisfying relationship can't be missing the spiritual element. God is so important to me, and I can't be with someone long term who doesn't feel the same way. It really bothers me that I keep meeting wonderful guys that are missing that very important piece... So getting my groove on with C. was awesome tonight, but now I feel like I have to fight off these feelings that I am developing for him. Grrr. Nothing is easy in the dating world....